A Tribute To Father's

As Father's day is approaching and I can't but think about my dad, about how difficult it is to celebrate this day without him. I also think about the other daughters and sons. This will be the 3rd Father's day his body is no longer with me and my family in Earth but his soul still is.

Last year I had a very interesting experience on Father's day, which made me think he was around. I was on a cruise on the Mediterranean. I rented Internet for a few minutes to log in facebook and wish my brother and my friends who are dads a happy day. I also posted this note for my dad on my wall: "Happy Father's day in Heaven daddy! I'll always love you." Right after I finished writing it, the Latin band started playing a Pasodoble. It made me remember my dad even more! He didn't take dancing very seriously, but when it came to Pasodoble, he was passionate about it! He taught me how to dance it. If we were in a party together I always dance pasodoble with him. As a matter of fact that was our last dance in May 2009 at my niece's communion party. As soon as I listened to this music play my eyes filled up with tears. Then like this was not enough to bring memories of him, the next song the band played was "Cielito Lindo" the song my dad sang to me... and in the lyrics I want to believe he was sending me also a message: "sing and don't cry" (Canta y no llores)! He didn't want me to cry. He wanted for me to be happy, to sing and enjoy my vacation! He wanted to let me know he got my Happy Father's day note! I'll make sure I send him another this and every Father's day until the day I leave this body and go back to the source and I'll be able to dance with him again.

 As I go through that day, I have to be thankful for the years I shared with him. I'll remember that he is now an angel looking out for me, my sister and my brother; my mom, the love of his life; his grandchildren, even the ones that never got to meet him. His energy is around all of us. The energy never dies it only transforms. A part of him is in our cells. His soul is now one with each of us. He can be with all of us, in different places at the same time.

Blessings to all who walk in similar shoes, I want you to know that you will be in my thoughts. Celebrate your dad's lives and still wish them a Happy Father's day. His soul might be there celebrating with you too, happy and proud of having a daughter or a son like you.

Luisa's story is the most beautifulest story, her story I decided I had to just share with you all due to the fact it is what I try to write about in each my posts, that even though our loved ones passed are not seen they still remain with us in our lives, it is in that our hearts take a deep comfort in.  Thank you Luisa so very much for allowing me to share this with everyone, also for being my first guest I have posted in my blog.

Written by:  Luisa GomezBowes



 

 

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Confessions: When you hit rock bottom

CONFESSIONS:  WHEN YOU HIT ROCK BOTTOM THERE IS NO WHERE TO GO BUT UP

For thirty-four years of my life I've never been a secure person.  Always second guessing myself, being afraid to be out in the crowds due to feeling I would be judged, not having the confidence in being in my own skin.  Going out in to the world was a huge task for me to achieve each day.

To be a prisoner trapped in your own body was what I was, the constant fear of never being good enough surrounded my life each as well as every day.  Deep down in me I knew I was good enough yet the lack of confidence always seemed to weigh that down.  Growing up as a teenager in high school noticing maybe my hair wasn't right, my make up wasn't perfect imperfections were always of notice to me.  Being so uncomfortable in your own skin can truly rule your world.

Through out my life I've never took a step back to understand why, to ask myself, why?.  There was always something haunting my thoughts each as well as every day, my hair is not long enough, the colour is ugly, my weight is not where it should be, my eyes are too big, on and on it went.  As a child I never had the special bond with my father as all little girls should have, to this day I resent that, I learn little by little to let this go, yet every now and then I remember the pain it caused, some days still does.

Life was not being lived as it should of been, looking back I can not believe it took so long to finally be free of it all, to finally be out of my own prison where I kept myself prisoner for too long.  Normal every day tasks were the toughest for me.  Constant wondering, "am I dressed OK"?, "will others judge me for what I'm wearing"?, "what I look like"?, do they think to themselves "oh my she is fat"?, all of this felt as though I was stuck in complete darkness.

As a young lady I was always afraid to speak of this, growing to an adult I felt it was up to myself to get over what ever it was I was going through.  Life was just not being truly lived, my life seemed as though it really wasn't a life.

Dating never went over well at all, it is true what they say "you can not love or be loved until you love yourself", unsuccessful relationships made it all that more difficult for the thoughts that forever remained in my mind.  It truly is a dark place not having confidence as well as lack of love for yourself.  To love yourself is truly one of life's greatest gifts as well as blessings.  However looking back I realise this is a part of my life, a lesson I have over com ed, something that I would never change no matter what, it is a part of my history, it is my battle scar to show the world I AM, that I always will be good enough.

Being through all of what I have to of conquered it all only shows me I don't give up, that I am still here, that I have beaten the toughest of battles.  My life is of a significance.  Then came along my husband passed bigger than life love touched my life to open me up, to make me understand that my life is here for a reason.  My loved one passed believed in me like no other, it was his believing in me as well as true love that started me on the path to loving myself.  It is of him I am freed from my own prison.  His love touched my life to show me that in this world I am of importence, that in this life there is never anything I can not do nor be unworthy of.

We have to stop to understand that it is not in the big things that make us important, it is not being a high profiled person that makes what we are.  The love we carry within for ourselves as well as put out in to the world is what makes the biggest of impacts on us as well as others lives, it is the love you give out that gets noticed.  Loving yourself as well as sending it out in to the world is the one blessing in life that will forever get noticed.

Going out in to the world before I could never look a stranger in the eyes, now as I go out in to the world I make sure I look in to as many strangers eyes with a smile as I can.  I go out in to the world feeling the love of my husband passed gave to me, I make sure everyone in my path feels that love. My husband passed had love in him bigger than this world, he always made it part of his days to help anyone, everyone he could.  Looking back I have always wondered why he did so much, now I know why.  I never truly understood, it always frustrated me why he would do so much for others, his love was a gift as well as a lesson to me to show me that this life is all about sending out love, to help others with that love in need.

My husband passed I know in my heart was a true gift to my life, to show me just what I have been missing all my life, to prove to me that my life was meant to be here, he truly saved my life. Once you are freed of such horrific negativity, insecurity, rock bottom confidence, nothing could ever feel so good to your heart along with your soul. It is as though nothing but blessings over flow in your life.

To all that read this, your life is of worth, your here for a reason, people see you, take your insecurities put them to rest.  It is in your mind that you can do it, tell yourself "I love me for me, I'm different yet for a reason, to be unique, your life matters, it will always matter".  To untangle yourself from the ropes of insecurity as well as lack of love is freeing yourself from prison.  None of us are here to be in pain, to be freed of it all is a feeling like no other.  The blessings around flow right in to your life, once you truly love you, the world takes notice.

To of known the person I was to who I am now you would of never guessed it.

Finding my husband passed I know now was truly a gift as well as blessing to my life, gifted to me from God to touch my life, to show me just how good enough I am, to truly open my heart along with my eyes to see the beauty all around me.  My husband passed was a way to prove to me I was of worth.  His love proved to myself I could love with out limits, that to use that love out in to the world.

To each as well as every widow out there know in your heart your loved one passed was a gift to your life, a gift to touch your heart to open your eyes to your life along with just how much you can love to no extent. They may not be seen but still remain a blessing to our life.  To feel the deepest, strongest of pain is when our hearts open, our eyes awaken to find the beautifulest of things around us.  Grieving is something we all look to as something that should never be, yet in the grieving we find the greatest of blessings, it is as though our loved ones passed are still there proving to us our life is of worth, that nothing in this life will keep us down.

My life has been tough at many times yet it is not something I would ever change for a second.  Don't ignore the grief allow it to be felt, just know in time you will see all the beauty around you, you will see the light, your smile will return.  My daughter reminds me every day just what love is, that love is what is the most important thing, not to just feel yet to give.

Looking back to the person I was, I smile brightly knowing that no one is better then me, that who I am is good enough, always will be.  There are times I feel the bad feelings haunt me, I stop to remember my husband passed true love, that is my reminder that I will always matter, that in this life there is not anything I can not do.

NOTE TO ALL:  Your loved one passed is a gift to your life, a gift that will always be with you.  When feeling bad remembering their love will give you the strength to make it past all those bad feelings.  Their love is something that will forever be our guidance in our life.  Trust in that love that it will always be the one truest of love that will help you make it through anything you do in your life.

 

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James Van Praagh

JAMES VAN PRAAGH:  HIS GIFT BLESSES OUR GRIEVING HEARTS

I have always taken a huge liking to James Van Praagh due to the fact of some personal experiences as well as always feeling in my heart that life just does not end after death.  Losing many loved ones in my life I have always felt their love even long after they have passed.  Going through our busy lives we never really take the time to notice the blessings of signs all around us that our loved ones passed are trying to send to our hearts.  It is through James I truly realised to slow down to acknowledge all the love around me, to truly take in the messages sent to our souls from a loved one passed.

Through James I have learned to open my mind as well as heart, to not be so narrow minded as well as oblivious to life after death.  So many pull the blind folds over their eyes, if only just for a second they would stop to think to understand is when they will truly feel the same.  Even far before I lost my husband I had realised that our loved ones passed were always with us, not to be seen yet to be felt.  To instill blessings in our lives each as well as every day.  The heart when open will feel, will start noticing such beautiful signs around us each day, it will start to feel deeply the presence of our loved ones passed.

James Van Praagh has always touched my heart as well as life due to the gift he carries in his heart.  He always touches my heart through the gift he is forever using to touch peoples life.  His love for his blessings radiates brighter then any bright light.  It has always been so moving to me that he is forever mending grieving hearts, that he touches the pain of grief with love in helping people to truly feel at peace, to truly help ease their pain in their times of despair.  Watching a grieving soul with such pain in their hearts turn in to nothing but great peace, watching their pain evaporate in to the air touches my heart deeply.  James is a gift to all grieving hearts.  He is a gift to the pain we carry for so long in our hearts.  I have always thought to myself what it would be like to bring such peace to peoples hearts, which has brought me to creating my blog in hopes to help all grieving out there in this world. 

It has been said our loved ones passed were a gift from God to show us just how much we can love, that their love is God's way to love us through them.  It is to my realisation that James Van Praagh is a true gift given to this world to bless the hearts of all that grieve.  Through James people take such deep comfort in knowing their loved ones passed will forever be with them, that our loved ones passed may no longer be seen yet always remain in our lives to send huge blessings in our lives. 

For those who may doubt, it is not until you fight your way out of the pain your heart will then take notice to it all.  Through grief it is the pain that traps us from understanding as well as feeling our loved ones passed are always there, that they are sending their love to be felt.

There is no denying this for me, I was at my deepest of lows in my grief when my husband passed sent to me a true blessing of his love.  There was no denying the moment, nor saying it was of a coincidence.  On this day I can never describe to you the feelings that surrounded me, then from out of no where a message of love was sent to my heart from my husband passed.  It was in that moment I felt everything just leave my mind, my heart, it felt as though I was freed from the grief.  In that moment my heart felt his touch, I felt his powering love whisper to me "he will never leave me in despair", that his true love will be the light in my darkest hours forever.  Through this experience I felt my heart feel at ease, that grieving took on a whole different way of feeling as well as thinking.  Later on in another post I will share with all of you this experience as well as pictures so you all can see along with know our loved ones are forever making sure we are safe, that we remain blessed.  Once you see my experience you will just know in your heart that although our loved ones passed can not be seen they still surround our lives with their love.  If you all rise above the pain it is then you will see what it is in your hearts your loved ones passed are forever saying to your hearts as well as minds.  Their gift to us will forever remain with us, it is their gift of true love we find the strength to make it through it all.

I am not saying to ignore that pain, simply allow yourself to feel it yet don't let it take a hold of you forever.  What lies past the pain is what waits for your hearts to recognise.  Grieving is a pain like no other, I honestly believe it is a blessing in disguise.  It is through grieving we find the power that has always been in us, it is that power we find that we understand that in our life there is not anything we can not do nor accomplish.  Through the grief we truly find who we are, we start to take a bigger look in to everything we see.  It is as though our hearts open, our life blossoms, it is when we truly see what it is to live, we find our purpose in this life we live.

James Van Praagh blesses the world with his gift, he is the one that shows others all of this, he opens up minds as well as hearts.  For people who are stuck in the pain he lends them his hand of love to pull them above the pain to see the world in a complete beautiful way.  He allows great peace to the pain in peoples hearts, he closes the chapter of pain in peoples lives.  It is through him people finally start to smile, that people start to truly understand what it is to feel complete peace in their hearts.  Through his gift all grieving hearts are awakened to what it is their loved ones passed have been trying to let their hearts know all along. Hope begins to grow in their life, strength begins to flow, that is when grieving hearts start to fly like eagles.

Once your grieving hearts open up to understand is when you start seeing the love as well as blessings in your life.  Your loved ones passed are the gift in your life that will forever keep you on the path to all of your dreams.  I honestly feel in my heart that due to the tremendous pain we have felt is why we truly end up finding so many doors opening up to us, blessings to us from true love we have been blessed with.

It is in grief we find ourselves, we find our power, we find our strength.  In grief we find the miracles in life.  For those stuck in the darkness James blesses them by pulling back the darkness for them to see the light in their hearts as well as life.

Through this journey of grieving I have never known before things that have been there all along that I have never took the time to notice.  That to me has been a gift, to me it will forever be a blessing.  I take strength in knowing that losing my loved one passed has been a gift to me, to my life, it has been the way to open my eyes, to open my heart.  It is through my husband I have found myself, it is as though his gift to me is his forever true love he has given to me, to our daughter, to our life.  Our loved ones passed will forever carry us through our darkest hours.

James Van Praagh I will always be thankful for you, my heart will always thank you.  From a far I will always be admiring you as well as your gift of love.  It is due to you people find peace in their life, in their hearts as well as minds.  You will forever be a true gift to all paths you cross.  I thank you for your true genuine love you show all in just your presence.  Your gift will forever be healing all grieving hearts around the world.  You are a blessing to our hearts as well as our souls.  I thank you from the deepest of my heart for just being you.  Your true to yourself, as well as others you meet.  It is in great hopes that I get to meet you one day soon.  To be in your presence would be a true gift.  Thank you James Van Praagh for just being you.  Your bright light radiates through out the world.

NOTE TO ALL:  James Van Praagh has always been the reason I have been wanting to reach out to all grieving in hopes to touch the hearts of others, to in some way be able to mend the hearts of all grieving, even if only a little.  It has been through him I have realised our loved ones passed will be in our lives forever blessing our days with their love.  Through them we start to see the importance of our life.

Go visit James Van Praagh http://www.vanpraagh.com/

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One Year Mark

ONE YEAR MARK: AS I WAS TOLD LIFE COULD BE BITTER SWEET SOMETIMES

Sometimes in life we are deeply touched by visions as well as thoughts of the past.  Unexpectedly we are brought to the pain of the past.  It is up to us how we react to it, it is up to us if we let that pain forever control us, keeping us trapped in that pain.  For me the one year mark was a true test to myself as well as my future ahead.

Laying in bed the night before May 9, 2012 a year since I forever said good-bye to my one true love of my life.  A year since our beautiful little girl lost her daddy, the one love that loved her bigger than life.  I could feel in my heart the pain was just the same as it was on that day one year before.

Shockingly I realized just how much pain lay ed within me as well as my heart.  It was then I realized it will be with all my power how I decide to make it through this day.  When presented with the unexpected pain, I truly see now how some feel as though there is really no way out, that staying in the pain is the only option.  When dealing with such over powering pain it is as though the darkness is pulled over your eyes, the darkness shuts down all of you.  I truly see how it can be easy to just let it be.  On this day the pain felt as though it did on the day May 9, 2011 one year later.  Nothing changed as I remembered it was the day I had to let go of my loved one passed.  That the pain was the exact same as it was then one year later.

Not one person can change the choice you make.  As an individual it is truly up to us as a person to reach in our hearts for the light, to pull back the hope, to forever fight back when presented with the pain.  So on this day, the day of the one year mark, I was pushed back two steps, it totally took all of me by surprise that it would feel the way it did, complete heart breaking pain.  When presented with such horrific pain we have to use all of what we have in us to pull our life back on to the path of light.  For me this was a true test to everything I have spoken of in all my posts.

So here I say to all of you, do not judge your hearts for the pain you feel.  Do not allow yourself to think it should be easier, that something is wrong with you for feeling the pain even after a year.  Allow your hearts to feel it all, take it all in, good with bad, just do not let that take over of your life, don't let it rob you of your future.  Understand that this surge of unexpected pain will from time to time always reappear to us, understanding it is not there to stay, only if you allow it not to.  Do not allow yourself to feel that you have failed in any way due to the fact you feel it should not feel so painful still.  Our hearts will forever feel it, our hearts will forever remember it.  Embrace the pain yet do not let it hold you hostage of your life.

To all I say CELEBRATE, your loved ones passed may no longer be seen but forever live on through us.  Celebrate them, celebrate your life you had with them.  It is through our love along with happiness they forever grow to never be forgotten.  On this day I took the pain, yet worked through it, not allowing it to ruin how it was I would celebrate my TRUE LOVE.  Understanding that my loved one passed love was so much more worth then giving in, after all it was through him I discovered there was nothing I could not do in this life I live.  Thinking to myself, the pain was never a part of our life together, so why allow it to be now?.  Still to this very day I feel the affect of the one year mark anniversary in my heart.  Rising above is truly how you shed the layers of pain, fighting back to enjoy our loved ones passed is how the pain becomes less and less.

Celebrating for me could be different for others.  On the day of the one year mark I visited his grave, sent him my love.  While standing before his stone I discovered a four leaf clover, my heart felt the touch of his love very deeply.  It was in that moment I realized our loved ones passed are forever watching out for us, that even though not seen they still walk with us.  Our loved ones passed will forever be blessing our lives, they forever want us to smile, to succeed, to live our life to the best.  My whole body just felt his love, I just knew he was there with me reminding me they will forever be our gift, they will forever bless our lives with the truest of love.  After that we did all of his favourite things, we let go of balloons of notes filled with our best memories, we gathered with the people that loved him the most, candles were lit and his life was of celebration not pain nor loss.

So when embarking on the one year mark I say to you, don't let yourself believe that it should not hurt like it does, do not judge your heart, don't compare your love with time.   We are forever going to be challenged with this pain, our hearts will never forget.  It is in how we deal with the pain is what matters, to allow yourself to live in the pain is what degrades our loved ones passed, being stuck in pain is like saying their love was pain, I know for all of you that is not true, so don't allow it to be.

Our loved ones passed love was brighter then any light in this world, it did not fill us with pain so why keep allowing yourself to shut down to the world.  Our loved ones passed love is there, it is their love that allows us to grow, to reach the stars, to conquer what ever it is we can dream of.

On this day there were so many blessings that took place to only prove to me that all of what I said is true.  They are the light in our life that will forever be instilling blessings all around us every day.  Their love is what forever paves our paths to a life full of dreams coming true.  Take the day to love yourself as well as your loved ones passed, go easy on your hearts, release your judging heart, walk with love, just love as well as celebrate.

Through out this day I recognised how I kept feeling so happy yet feeling very sad, I kept asking myself, " how can you feel so happy along with pain at the same time"?, I thank Deepak Chopra for answering this question on this day, he said "life can be bitter sweet".  Take the time to feel the pain, yet understand that the pain is not how are loved ones passed made us feel.  Celebrate their love, remember the one best memory that always brings that bright smile to your face.  Allow the bad memories to be remembered another day, the bad memories will never out do the good ones.

Do not expect that due to it being a whole year it should be easier, that will never be, we lost a life, we lost our life, that will forever be remembered.  Grieving will forever be in our hearts, that to us is our battle scar that we look at with pride, that is the scar that shows the world we all were gifted from God with TRUE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. 

All I want everyone to know is to not give up, to give up is to let go of our loved ones passed love, it's letting go of our truest of happy life we shared with them.  Celebrate them, show them their love will forever be remembered, show them our hearts are so very thankful to them. Also I say time is time, time has no limits on grief, we all go through our lives living our life, life is not a race, life is just simply to be lived, we get to where we need be when ever that may be.  Our time is our time, not for others to say how it should be.

NOTE TO ALL:  Do not ever compare yourself to others, we are all uniquely designed to live our life with a purpose of being here in this world.  On the day of your one year mark, celebrate your love, take that love to keep going through each day celebrating that love, celebrating our loved ones passed gift to us, TRUE LOVE.  Take that gift out to the world, it's a gift given to us to share with the world.  Take the time to see the reminders around you that our loved ones passed are showing to our hearts.

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Oprah Dream Coming True

OPRAH DREAM COMING TRUE PART 2:  AHA PARADISE            

In continuation of "OPRAH DREAMING COMING TRUE" this post will be a shocker to all widows that read this.  So as I mentioned before as I sat watching Oprah as well as her powered house spirit healers, I kept thinking I knew that this experience would be something to remember ALWAYS.  What I could of never imagined was it would change my life right before my very own eyes, that in that sitting I would realise what I'm doing is 100% confirmation that it was exactly what I was suppose to be doing, it is my passion, it is my purpose, that it was a sign to my heart that it was where I'm suppose to be.  

To make it all that much more real there were two good friends I've met through Oprah as well as this journey of grieving sitting beside me to watch in awe as my life was given confirmation in front of their own eyes.  Nada, as well as Liz Toole, I still to this day hold them both special to me in my heart, for embracing me so genuinely as well as compassionate as I cried my "ugly cry", although I say "ugly cry" however does not mean a "sad cry" this was a "miracle of a cry" a gift to my heart along with my soul.  That I will never be able to explain enough just how blessed as well as grateful I am to of been there, it is as though in that moment of time it is exactly where I was meant to be.

Everyone talks about miracles, well on April 18, 2012 the day of my loved one passed and I wedding anniversary A MIRACLE did happen to me as well as my life.  It moved me in to a place of absolute joy, love, gratefulness, it was as though the bright light was turned on in a very dark room.  That day was the day of complete proof that I had no where else to go or be, I was already where I needed to be.  It literally defined my path of all dreams I could of ever thought of will be achieved.  

As a widow I set out to forever touch the hearts of others grieving, to be the legend that will forever heal those who are grieving.  To allow the world to know that GRIEVING is not a choice, it is of tremendous heartache, darkness forever surrounds you, yet only for just a little while, you all have it in you to see that light, there is always light there you just have to allow yourself to find it.  Open heart along with LOVE.

Iyanla Vanzant said "your story will heal, it will heal someone else" these words are something as widows we all must take in to our hearts, realise that we have the doors of opportunity opening waiting for us, that our stories are of the most painful yet in the light they have power to heal every living widow who is out there.  Our stories are living proof, yes you can make it, yes you can see the blessings in such a horrific loss.  Opening your heart allows yourself all the strength you will ever need to push through your life.  To truly understand that in the darkest of times you are not lost, that if you keep walking you will get there, you will get to where you need to be.

The fellow widow in the audience (Leslie) was as though on this day I was there to be taught as well as proof that my life is of purpose, that through my gratitude of having my loved one passed true love is truly the reason why I have been awakened, that it is through losing him not his love that I rose above the pain to see oh so many doors of opportunity open.  Deepak Chopra confirmed all of this for me by saying "Gratitude opens doors to greatest abundance, gratitude opens doors".  Once we realise the love that we shared with our loved ones passed is never to be over, that it carries through with us the rest of life, that is when we start feeling the gratefulness, our hearts start to fill of nothing but pure gratitude.  Their love is what paves our way to the path of conquering all.

Hearing these amazing people speak (Deepak Chopra, Bishop Jakes, Iyanla Vanzant, Tony Robbins as well as Oprah of course) to Leslie was as though this was a private session to all of us widows, it was as though God had a message for us, through them he spoke it.

When times start to get tough, when memories are painful, it feels there is no way out, remember what Deepak Chopra said "no matter what the situation is close your eyes, think of all things that your grateful for and it will open your heart" Remember their love, that will always remind you of how grateful we will forever be.  Tony Robbins said "trials and tribulations are blessings in disguise", that is the truth once the pain subsides a little, we truly start to see all the blessings that surround us on our path to grieving.  To start a new, we truly find what has been there all along, that we just never come to realise before.  Tony Robbins also said "life is not working against us, it is trying to work for us" we need to just open our eyes, walk strongly, allow it to all just flow for us.

Here is where I truly felt my heart was touched, that it all clarified exactly what I have thought through this grieving journey.  Bishop Jakes said "God sent our loved ones passed to us to show us the depth of love we are capable of, experience, express the love we are capable of".  It is truly through love that life begins to be lived, we need to take that truest of love given to us, go out in to the world to show all that it is love that conquers it all.  That the purest of love sent out will heal our hearts, it heals our souls.  True love opens the doors to paths of what ever it is you feel you are capable of doing.  Bishop Jakes also said "we have been given a gift, there are women who never been loved liked this, our loved ones passed raised the bar on what we are willing to accept, God loves through people, our loved ones passed love is Gods love given to us through them, God has loved us with an everlasting love".  Our loved ones passed are truly a gift to us, it is through them we truly understand what true love is.  Through there love we strive to reach for the stars, it is because of their love we reach those stars.

So in the beginning we may all feel as Tony Robbins said "in grief we get emotionally hijacked", take the time to feel your pain, do not let it take over you, allow your eyes to truly see the beauty in you as well as around you.  Be grateful, feel our loved ones passed love, take that with you to move forward, set out to share that love, it is then you will realise your dreams walking along side of you, with you.

More words of wisdom from Iyanla Vanzant "pay attention inward now", take that truest of love, feel it, know it, use it to change your life as well as everyone around you.  Our loved ones passed may not be seen yet they are always with us, they are always around us.  Take their gift of true love, conquer every thing you ever dream ed of with that love.  It is because of them we will forever be blessed with the greatest of love.

Iyanla Vanzant said "our loved ones may not be with us but they are every where".

NOTE TO ALL : Deepak Chopra asked of any health issues to Leslie, she spoke of insomnia, weight loss, not being able to focus, a bunch of symptoms were mentioned, these all were something I could recognise, this brought me to sobbing, LET GO OF YOUR ANGER.  Deepak Chopra said "it is because of the anger we are this way, go beyond the anger, feel the pain, when you do there is a very intense love to be awakened".  So to all of you, keep pushing through it, don't allow it to take you over, once you get back to the gift of true love given to us from our loved ones passed there will no longer be a feeling of pain, only a path to follow that will forever lead us to all of our dreams coming true.

 

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The Ottoman: Simple Things Create Huge Healing

So while out shopping I came across something that I really liked.  As a woman you must know that we always want what we want, we like to decorate our homes to look good, when presented with a good deal it is even better (LOL).  The whole time while admiring the brown ottoman my whole intent was to just have it to add to our new space. 

My daughter and I are on the bridge to building a new life, life has never been just two, now here we are just two.  It is not a place we would of wanted to be, yet we are striving to build a new home, a space of our own, scared yes, knowing we will make it through, of course we will.  This to so many may be the most scariest, to me it is the most difficult to imagine, never been alone with out my loved one passed since I was twenty-two, now on top of it all I am a single mother. 

That is just it we feel we are alone, we feel the rest of our future will be just us, yet we seem to forget we are NEVER ALONE.  When thoughts of this enter your mind remember love is all around you, support of family as well as friends is only a phone call away.  Remember our loved ones passed will forever remain with us, as a guardian, as love, they will always be the ones to protect as well as guide us in this life we are living.  From the deepest of my heart I know they are the working force in our life to make sure that we may always be protected, that our lives will forever be blessed.

If you are in your home surrounded by memories, the memories you feel are so painful you find yourself not being able to get out of it, I suggest to make it your own.  Although understanding you may feel if you do you are trying to forget along with feeling guilty, that is not so, change is allowing yourself to break out of that pain, to release it, allowing yourself to start a new.  Change is scary yet a part of life that is a must.  I've said it before " living through your fears is how we see just how far we can go, living out of our boundaries is where we realise just how much we are capable of".  So yes change is a must, even if it is changing furniture around for the time being, once you see you got through it, you will start to make changes more, you will then see it is "YOUR SPACE" that the memories are not what is around you, yet always forever in your heart.

We all seem to hold on to the idea that to remember things everything needs to stay as is, not realising the memories are not what is around us, the memories are what will forever be in our hearts, as well as our minds, our thoughts, our feelings.  Remaining THE SAME is keeping our lives on hold, so change is not forgetting it is building a new life, yet holding our loved ones passed with us each along with every day in our hearts.  The cycle of life will forever be changing, that does not mean we forget, it means we begin to blossom, we begin to build towards ANEW.  NEW never forgets old, it is the old that creates the new.

Always remember TRUE LOVE never ever goes anywhere, we may not be able to hear nor see our loved ones passed but they forever remain with us.  It is not through material things we allow their life to be remembered, it is through us as well as their child/children along with their family they forever walk with us in to our future.

So GET EXCITED to changing up your space, make it a replica of you, of you as well as your child/children.  You will see just how comforting it will be, you will see just how proud you are of yourself while doing it.  Once you live through your fears little by little you will see there is nothing you can not do.  You will find yourself smiling, with a sensation of huge gratitude, you will feel your loved ones passed are smiling upon you full of love of all that you are conquering.  It is through our loved ones passed we see just how much we can get through as well as do.  Their love is a gift to us, it shows us we are capable of loving to no extent.  It is due to them we fought the big fight, that we keep fighting the big fight, that we strive to build a beautiful new life.  That giving up is not an option, when faced with the most difficult of things we use the power of love that was given to us to make it past.  Our loved ones passed opened the doors of many possibilities to our lives, they continue to do so each as well as every day.

Going back to the ottoman, while purchasing I never thought what it was I would do with it.  Getting it home I thought of something, I thought to gather all important things of my loved one passed that I held on to yet had a very hard time to see.  Each thing I placed inside the ottoman, promising myself that each day I would go pick one thing out to write down how it made me felt.  That I would no longer hide from it, that throwing it out would only be not dealing with it, that it would be the easy way out.  We truly can not live our life if we do not face our pain, if we forever keep avoiding our fears.  So each day I go back to the ottoman, I embrace the things of my loved one passed that causes me to feel pain, I keep writing what it was that I felt that day.  It is not until I can approach this ottoman along with his belongings that I no longer feel pain, yet happiness of the memories behind the items of my loved one will I ever stop going back.

NOTE TO ALL:  Writing your thoughts of how you feel is a very therapeutic way to release your pain, as you write the thoughts you write away the pain, you let it go in the writing.  Face your fears that is truly how we grow, that is how we realise dreams are made.  This is how we start noticing just exactly what we can do in our life.  Through our fears we become fearless, starting to realise there is nothing we can not do to conquer a life of absolute DREAM CATCHING.  Having that true love of our loved ones passed in our life is what makes us realise just how powerful we are.  Our loved ones passed have given us a gift, they have given us a true blessing that not everyone will ever get to have.

"LIVE YOUR LIFE FEARLESS"

TRUE LOVE is a gift of God, it shows us our life is full of endless possibilities.  Our loved ones passed were a gift of God instilled in our lives to prove to us our life is here for a purpose, that loving with out limits opens all doors to our dreams, there is not anything we can not be as well as do.  Thank you to "Bishop Jakes" brought to us all by the GREATEST LADY EVER "OPRAH".

 

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