Expected comes Unexpected

 

 

When you have to fight, try to control, and feel as though you are fighting for the attention of someone you may feel you have feelings for know in your heart, it is not because of you, it's not because you are not worthy, not good enough, that person is better than you, it simply means that is the person not suited to fit in your heart.  Love is easy flowing, real and easy to just be with, once it captures your heart and everything just falls into place is when you know that it truly is love.  Love is often enough heartbreaking in many of situations but Love is to be in the life we live with out it we are not living.  First and foremost the love for yourself must be present 100%, the love of God in the heart in you that beats. 

 

With out loving yourself first how is it to know what really what love is from another?.  Too many times I see so many pushing for that love of another finding themselves going in circles than finding that person blaming themselves for not getting that person they so whole heartedly thought would be.  I use to be this person in many situations and found each and every time it slowly deteriorated self confidence, with feelings always as though I was less worthy of that persons attention an love. 

 

I type tonight of this for every person out there that may feel this feeling going through life trying to find the one, the one that fits their heart, the one that is the true love to their life.  Simply find it in you to know that like failing this to is a lesson to you, not a break down in your confidence nor to feel less of a beautiful person that you are but simply a lesson teaching you growth in the life you are walking.  It's not about looks, it's not about self-worth, it is simply about lessons to your heart and in finding that out there is someone greater than what you were seeking.  Don't frown because beside you right now you see no one, smile in knowing that patience is the key to your most amazing of moments to come, the saying "all good things come to those who wait" is of the truth, do not let yourself be belittled simply because of a certain someone looks differently to you as you do towards them.

 

 

 

 

The beauty of you is there, the person in front of you that you so desperately thought was the one could very well be on a path of more growth of knowledge needed, for many reasons that person is just simply not of what you thought would be.  Too many cut their hearts short shutting off to the world that the person of their heart could be right around the corner but if closed heart, closed eyes and never seen.  If your in a relationship and you feel that it is not feeling right or has many difficulties that is a true sign for you to stop and examine what it is that is happening, that maybe this person once felt as, as a fit to your heart may have been someone put into your life for a short period to not stay for long but to help you grow and give lessons strongly needed in the life you live, short endings to a relationship is not a negative to you, failure to you is a lesson and lessons that you need to understand and find.  Again in many break ups too many feel their the problem, their not worthy, that it was their fault and their self confidence gets cut down, this should not in any way affect the person in such a way, instead be a lesson to your life, a lesson to your heart, soul, a smile in knowing instead that it is not about not being less worthy of that persons love yet a lesson of moving on to a more worthy person for you, a higher place of true love of another. 

 

Your standards should never be anywhere but high, and in that higher level is where you will find where that true love exists and walks every day.  Your worthy of true love, true love is for all and your standards should never be lower than that level.  Here in this world we live in each of us hold on to the greatest of love, we just have to open our hearts and understand YES we are good enough for our higher standards we hold in our hearts, that we won't give in to what feels less than what we want or expect.  The person that you so often fought to see you, to like you, to love you will soon enough see the loss that they let go by.  It is not you, it is not anything to do with not being worthy because we all are worthy of the greatest love that extends beyond the stars to have for our own in our life, so don't fret, don't let yourself be captured in that jail of low self esteem, know the love in you and for you is strong, powerful and looking for that true love in this big world we live yet sometimes can be so small when the greatest of love gets together. 

 

Once there was a girl who so whole heartedly blamed and blamed all of rejections on herself to suddenly find out one day just exactly how high her standards were that she was not yet seeing on that level of love,  it is as though that level is invisible until the love of ourselves shows up, than that is when our hearts and eyes open to see that level by the grace of God. 

 

 

 

 

 

Too many lives taken, too many lives wasted in low self worth, too many wandering around settling under that standard that it is so much of a heartache to see, know deep in you is a person who is worthy of all their heart desires.  Don't let one foolish person fog you of that light in you, smile in knowing beyond that person is someone of the highest level of love that is truly of the worth you been waiting for, for so long. 

 

To all girls looking at themselves feeling down, look again past what you see to see in your heart the love that you hold, than look again and again and you soon will start to see that beauty shine outwards and love everything you are looking to.  Don't let yourself be a prisoner to the negative that wants you to think you are not loving, beautiful and worthy because that negative preys on those that are not looking deep enough into themselves finding their fire of love waiting to ignite for themselves and others. 

 

Sparkle may be dimmed but never gone.  You have it all in you to sparkle so bright that you attract exactly what you shine, nothing but the best.  Love you first, look in that mirror fifty times a day if you have to until you see the light flicker, than smile in knowing how vividly you see the beauty shooting outward in all of you.  Don't let the little bring you down, smile to know the best of the best is on it's way, that the person that denied you will never learn the lesson of life, loving their own self.  My heart I thought could not, should not, would not ever love again has been awakened to the key of so many failures and known exactly why through the failures it has been broken in the search for the bar my husband passed set for another, that for far too many times my heart was looking under that bar, wanting too fast, moving too fast, that my heart was whispering to me the whole time "I am not ready just yet, I will let you know when it is time, not in your time it will be but in my heart's time it will be". 

 

 

 

 

Love is a hard deal, because in all love even in the truest is loss, yet Love is who we are first and foremost, the journey of our lives is so greatly large, so much for us to learn, gain, understand, explore and to just grow that sometimes the greatest of love to our lives never come before we learn those lessons, before we explore all we need to see, and yet sometimes the greatest of love in special matters comes before to be that lesson to someone in darkness having hard times to get out sent from God to push that person to the light they need to see that never could on their own, miracle of love is often blessed to many, and that kind of love is truly a blessing to the person blessed upon to help grow into the beauty that they have been all along but never seen. 

 

 Letting yourself be led by failure of those that don't love back should not bring you down but lift you higher to understand your heart is full of unlimited love, that when seen you will just know exactly in that split second just how beautiful you have always been, like all in life it is through the toughest of battles that always lead you to your light, so walk strong and take the breaks to breathe and understand you are of so much worth that as your dreams you dream to be true one day so is that love that you seek for.

 

We all have that gift in us all we just have to love for ourselves first than out into the world, hiding behind the shadows of low self esteem is no where for anyone to be, let your heart open and beam out the beauty of all of you unto the world, to find yourself walking on the truest of platforms where all the greatest of love walks and have been walking you just didn't find that out until you have opened yourself to see it, and through it is because of all the rejection your heart took in as lessons instead of negativity that you have gotten to see that love, so don't waste your precious time falling into the trap of low self esteem, self worth to waste time to where your heart really needs to be.  Kindly say thank you, say thank God for all those people you so desperately thought were the ones that turned out to not be because it is because of them you finally understand it was not you, it was not the love of the standard your heart was waiting for.

 

 

 

 

Confidence, sparkle, bright light is your path, so stand tall and walk the walk and you will see that not ever you are unworthy of anything.  Look in the mirror to see that bright light so bright starring back at you and smile in knowing you are a creation of the purest of love, that through it all you were walking through the life of toughest of things to be who you are where you are now, and still have much more to walk, so love, be the biggest of love you are put here to be and in it all you will find nothing but unconditional love flowing into your life, no matter how long, no matter how many doubts, it will be, it is there, you will find it.  Just when you are least expecting it like as fast as the flick of a switch it will be.  Isn't life pretty full of unexpected precious gifts?  It amazes me just how unexpected things unfold when never thought of nor crossed your mind there it is, there is what you thought of in your heart for so long but in that moment it was not on your mind to surprise you and say "hey there here is what you been waiting for, but since you have stepped back and let go of wanting so bad this is your gift to you, here I am".

 

Life's pretty blissful in moments of the unexpected, that the more you see it, the more it flows into your life, like the saying, "set it free, if it comes back it was meant to be", so is the same for anything you feel so whole heartedly for, you have to not force it, hold it tight, you have to soon let go of, not give up but let it free to hands higher and leave it from your worries of thoughts and mind to see one day your unexpected that expected so hardly before appears to you with a surprise and a gratefulness of anything greater in this world.  A thank you to above, as you stand in shock to what you have wanted so badly but let go has come back your way in the letting go,  it may not be in the form of how you expected but greater than what you thought of or seen in your mind.  The miracle of letting go.

 

So this is a special one for so many out there feeling down and out because in your down and out if you hold on for longer with all your love you will find your miracle of unexpected coming your way, don't let go, don't give in, don't fall prisoner just hold on tight your miracle of letting go is on it's way to you and your heart.  Know deep in you that you are worthy of all you see, all you feel, all you dream, to you it may seem to be that but it is in disguise to the actual realness that is coming in it's own time your way.  Love you, Love others, stand tall, carry your bright confidence and wear that smile of sparkle out in the world to be thankful for what is of now knowing that soon what will be.  Even if you feel it's been so long you will see all of you awakened and looking around to life in its purest of form.  Don't give in to the unworthiness, low self esteem keep watching you and see that greatest love of all you hold within and hold on tight, your miracle is on its way, even if it feels so long don't fret it is still there on its way to you.  Until then love, love, love, laugh to the ones that paid no attention to you knowing just how much they need to learn.

 

 

 

 

YOU ARE AND ALWAYS WILL BE WORTHY OF ALL YOU FEEL AND BELIEVE.

 

 

 

In dedication to a very special man in my life that proved to my heart I could love again and open my heart knowing in it's different way that unconditional love is always around you.