The backwards The New Forward

The whole time you were living it was living but what we did not know is that we were in a cocoon preparing to become a butterfly waiting for the biggest change in our lives to happen that we thought would never of been.  To our eyes life was as suppose to be, unconditional of love, happy, content, yet in front of us we could of never believe that beyond all that was more to be had, more to step forward to, a life altering change for even greater of things we imagined.   

Although at first that shedding of the cocoon could take a process of the greatest to shed, we still never had no choice to face the new of what we would become, once the wings are noticed there will be never any regrets in mind to be back in the cocoon we shed.  Until your whole being is ready to come through it, there is no way for you to see it, feel it, live it.  Sometimes I say to myself "I am going backwards, when I should be going forward", yet dancing back in the past has never been greater than I could of ever thought, going back to the fears of what was before to relive that fear and DO IT.   

So for me going back to the past is a conquering experience in a smile knowing of all the old that once was a fear is actually a goal to the new I am today conquering those fears of the old me that once was.  Just don't trip up and stay there too long, do your dance, face those fears and charge right back to the who you are of now. 

So when I say "I am going backwards", it is not of negative words I speak it is accomplishing the biggest obstacles that once kept me down in fear.  Once you been through the toughest of life's challenges the challenges of once before become so small yet to go back to show it you are not scared anymore is a dance in the outer limits of all fears that never are a fear again.  

To face the new fears that dance around you is nothing but a piece of cake compared to biggest of fear your whole life has faced, losing your love, your life, having to keep moving forward, finding your way through it all, accepting you are no longer who you once were but only accepting the new greater you in every way you turn.  

Change is not so much a scary place to be, change becomes a whole new experience to our hearts, change becomes natural, change makes fears disappear and seem so small.  Piece by piece fears are broken life is opened up, things once thought of as impossible are never impossible, they take on possible, always possible.  It creates a belief in you stronger than the chains of pain that once happened in the beginning of the break of the old you.  

Your safety of it all is your heart, the place where your love of the greatest resides, the ability to hold tight to it and walk on to all the new you create now.  It is not forgetting, it is not loving any less, it's making it in your world you live today, your new world, your new life, it's a special place where life becomes truly open, when all of you truly becomes all open, to see that you are what you create in the new.  

It's not what others say who you are, or who you can't be, those are just words that silently linger past you as you do the things you never thought you could or would.  Dancing in the past to the fears that once were but no longer exist.  You find a way to live life knowing just how short it can be, the real you that has been there all along comes forward and nothing is ever impossible to your mind, body, soul.  I actually smile when I do things I have always wanted but happy in knowing through me is the proud of my husband passed living it with me,  through me.  

It's no longer don't, I can't, I won't, it is I can, I will, I am going to.  Don't stand in front of me to tell me I can't because your words are nothing but of an echo, reflecting back to you on all of your own I can'ts.  The darkness has become a friend no longer fear, nothing is ever as scary as what your heart has been through, besides darkness never stays around after knowing none of it sheds darkness on you through the light of your inner self. 

Once losing the life you thought be forever, you start to look back to see how much hurt, pain, tears you endeared that all that in its way has made you the fearless person you are and become in the now.  No one can make that break, no one can make that disappear, no one can ever make you feel that again, so fears become a hobby, they become something no longer looked to as fear just something to accomplish and move through to the next.

  Failures, disappointments, rejections, falling down are nothing but ways to find your way through to what you want, falling down is the greatest of time to enjoy the view above you, yet getting back up full of more than what you had before you fell.  Crying, is no more a frightening feeling it will never stop, only knowing through the tears they fall down to the steps as you step higher.  

Negativity sets in but soon it knows that hold of chains no longer has a hold around you, taking a turn away from all that is around you.  Once you realize that nothing is ever forever, in the flesh, you know that very limited time you have to make the new of what you are the greatest you can ever have.  Love, love however, that stays beyond the flesh of who was beside you in the flesh now only tied to you through the invisible, that not seen always felt, always guiding, the energy of that love resides in every thing you touch, you breathe, you touch.

  

Hurt becomes lightly felt in the knowing of the hurt you took on for so long, it becomes as though a way of yes you hurt but you know in all of you the bounce back becomes quicker, that what you endured was much more than any hurt that could ever happen to you again.  Hurt takes a step back beyond the strongest of love you have in you to see it as a little, minor of moment not a permanent place.

We learn to always take those pieces and put them back together, leaving behind the pieces that do not fit anymore, to look above us to know that even hurt is a friend to our life, it is that hurt that perhaps is keeping us safe to a path we need not go down, keeping us safe from where we need not to be, shielding us from perhaps something our life has no room for.  Life is here, new you perhaps, yet in the new you find your wings, you find the truest of ways to see the beauty of it all.

Your heart space has many rooms to carry many with you as you build your new, as you take on the everything that comes your way.  The temple of your heart is for you to decide where who resides, you choose the rooms and carry it with you through all you do.  Going backwards sometimes could be your new forward and greatest of memories of conquering all that once was such a big fear, to see now fears are nothing but a hobby to walk through and greatest glisten of light ever after in you.

Love resides, love pushes you, love guides you, change challenges you, change proves to you that not anything could be harder than what you have already been through.  Love is a force field, your safe haven, your guidance, your leader, intuition is your gift.

~ Don't fret the little things when you have bigger, beautiful things in front of you waiting for you to see ~