This is a place for all broken grieving hearts to come, its my safe haven and I share this with all of you to be your safe haven. I am hoping through my journey of grieving as well as my real life experiences through grieving I can help all through their darkest hours, to ease the pain a little less, to maybe just give an ear to listen because sometimes that's all we need.


I am willing to bare all to each and everyone who comes to this blog. I want no one to be shy of anything. I want anyone to ask question's, tell their stories with pride. No one will judge you, or think you are different. We are all here going through the same thing GRIEVING. This is my safe haven, your safe haven. The place to heal, to find your smile again. Through this all I am on a journey to writing a book as well "The Grieving Path To Joy".

Sep 8, 2013

New Song Church

 
I don’t think it was of an accident that after my dad passed that something strong inside me led me to want to know the place he spent so much time and a place that was so deeply involved with him, a place that took in all of him with arms wide open.  It’s sometimes in life you are dealt with hard, blissful of lessons that happen late but better late than never that I know.  My heart is blessed to know my dad had his cup over flowing of so much love, that in his end days he knew God knew of his love and belief in him, that throughout his whole life he knew of God, he knew that one day he’d embrace God fully that it was there to be seen for him all along.  New Song Church has to be one of the most amazing of places you could ever find.  It’s about people being fully embraced by love, by God, no matter what their past brings in with them.  This place looks far past your exterior to get right in to your heart to bring out the most unconditional love that you have that lays in you, not ever noticing before.  Each week as I enter this place, I never ever know what to expect yet I do know it will be love and the acceptance of love from the people that gather.
I strongly been asking myself was this of coincidence that led me to this place, the place so many find comfort and love of God in, a place that proved to some miracles are real, that in God nothing is impossible, that in a group of those embracing God’s love never ever goes unnoticed to the Lord.  I think to myself it is no coincidence at all, in it all I feel close to my dad I feel his love, I see in the eyes of everyone stories of his life that they forever will carry with them.  This place is a place that amazes me and my heart each and every day, not only do they allow a place for all to visit God, they feed people of so many in the community to never leave hungry, they love fully and fill up those cups that are low on love to over flow it with the utmost of greatest love.  It’s in the singing as the Pastor with his band sings watching the people around smile, it’s seeing so many of strangers become one, it’s seeing a community changing their lives, changing the world by the other's they reach out to beyond this church.  I smile when I look around to see so many feeling acceptances, feeling love, knowing they have a place to learn that love is possible, that others do care, that they are never alone.
My dad’s love led me to this place, and I take that in fully to understand why, I see the beauty in what this lesson is teaching to me each and every day.  I was never a person who so freely could walk into a place of people I really did not know and start embracing them, yet in this all right from the start that is what I have been doing, it’s a place that you feel absolute peace in as soon as entering and looking around to see so many just loving life, seeing they may not have all they want in life but grateful to be where they are now.  My life has changed tremendously for the better because of this place New Song Church.  I have never ever seen so many out to help any way they could, even if that meant giving you the shirt of their back.  My dad and I had so much of bad times in between us but I do know this is his love to me, I do know he is laughing in seeing his daughter of all people enjoying his stomping grounds so much and all the people that loved him and that he loved so much as well.
 
 

I looked around the room last night as the music was playing to find myself crying, crying because I wished I could of shared so much with my dad there, crying in knowing just how blessed this place truly is and the overwhelming of life, love, God’s love that over flows all of you while you are in the presence of all the beautiful people.   It’s about learning that 2000 meals a month are given so freely, it’s about in the knowing that God will work with you if only you work with him and use the love he gave to you from the day you were created.  For me it is finally in the seeing the power of embracing God fully into your life, that faith, hope, belief and knowing he has an extraordinary plan for you if only you open up to knowing it all.  New Song Church has touched my heart, my life so deeply that no words can ever describe to the fullest just how much it has and continues to.  I gasp and laugh in knowing that my dad is the one that led me to this all, I always look up before entering and say “dad this is your place so you better have my back and let me see the love in all the people that loved you”. 
This place is a little part of the world creating peace and unconditional love; it’s creating the people that learn this pay it forward more out into the lives of others they come across, that they know.  It may just look like a building to you but God has granted this place a place of his love that once you become part of it you truly see how life can be.  It’s the Pastors of this place that amaze me and all the people that go far and beyond for so many in need, if this isn’t God working through others than I will never truly understand how it could not be.  You can truly see in every one of these people that they are grateful for their life and for what they have, from smallest to biggest of things.  This is a place where you could learn to appreciate your life and find your things to be grateful for.  God is working his love through each and every person in this place you feel it and just know it.  It is not a place that you go to than forgotten for the rest of the week, it’s a place that fully embraces you 24/7 and helps you to the fullest of love.
Being in service to go to fullest of our potential, is that not what most of us pray for every day at some point of time during our days?  I believe and know that I do and you can see that come full circle once your heart enters this building.  I have to be the proudest daughter for the blessing my father has left to me to of found, to of be a part of, when I sit in the circle outside of the church I know he’s there right next to me smiling in knowing he led me this way.  When I enter the building I know beside me he walks unseen but felt to the deepest core of my body.  God works in mysterious ways, that I do know of now, that sometimes when he sends you the hardest of struggles the love of him is there that will open you up to see just what it is he is giving a lesson to you about, that even if it is in the hardest of your pain his love is found eventually through it, his blessings to you and the unique life he blessed you with.
 
 

I’ve come to this place a long time ago while my dad was alive, yet always looking to it through different eyes, feeling sorry for my dad, yet finding out now that the only one to feel sorry for was myself for believing my dad did not have a good life, that he was in a rough area, having a rough life.  That’s where sometimes it is our own self that causes our hearts to close and to not truly see beyond what is there, judging to quickly to not fully see the bigger picture.  I cannot even say just how New Song Church is truly Gods work and love working in the most beautifulness way allowing you to see just what all the world could do if to be in service to Gods love, to give in and let God work through you onto others.   I honestly do not know how it would be if not for my father how I’d ever see this place and be where I am now.
These people keep the love of god and help out to others going so strongly and giving of themselves so freely that to not see the work of God is impossible.  Classes to so many that go on helping the community, classes given freely out of nothing but love to help all those in need.  From Parenting, to grieving, to preaching, to singing, to feeding it’s a place that over flows of the way God wants the world to be.  Never ever has my heart felt such peace as it does now, I now smile when I think of my father in knowing he knew just what life was intended for him to be.  When I feel sad he’s no longer here I smile in knowing through his stomping grounds I can always find him and his love.
New Song Church doesn’t just preach it practises what it preaches and goes far beyond the skies.  Once you go beyond the perceptions of your ego you will definitely see the Love of God working through this building of unconditional love.  These people take the time to hear the sorrows of so many aching of hearts to touch their life to show them there so much more to this world than they are seeing.  There is a song that is sung each week that always amazes me of all the people there turning into one, that each of them recognizes a piece of them in one another as they hold hands and dance together forming a circle of love as the song "Lean On Me" is being sung, this moment is the moment I truly see that God’s love if allowed works through every person in this world if allowed, that in your purpose his love will touch upon you to use it to the fullest of his love through you.
 

 

Now through it all my dream, my purpose is coming to life, through the love of the church I will be starting something I’ve been in search for so long now, just as stuck as I felt now I see it all, I’ve seen it through, my eyes opened to so much more than before, the bigger picture.  Empowerment in the City a non-profit organization will be starting, all this brought together by the lessons of my father and embracing God’s love and trusting in faith and belief.  I honestly don’t think I can say enough of what New Song Church has brought to my heart, the amazing people that touch my life, and the amazing people that were and are part of my father.  I wish I could name each and every person but they all know who they are and can’t thank enough that this movement in me has begun and is continuing to bloom.   I still laugh and smile in knowing how this all started, from losing my father yet gaining our love back, than learning through him the great place of unconditional love New Song Church. 
When you are in your own movie and accept the love of God and understand to use that love through you onto others that is truly when you are living your purpose, your dream, that’s when true dreams coming true happen, when you truly find out how life should be.  Have the faith and belief that something that is in store for you is bigger than you could imagine, that with God’s love not anything is too big to accomplish. 
NOTE TO ALL:  Not anything is too big to achieve if you have faith and allow your heart to embrace the love of God, to understand that even though you may feel so far away you are closer than you know.  Thank you New Song Church for opening my heart and for loving my father and giving him a place of absolute love he could call home, and in people he could call family, and to accept the love of God to understand that his life was of importance and he was here to bless lives and was special just for the fact that he was here.
 
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2 comments:

  1. Yes Tonya you are so right!!! New Song is so full of Love not just any Love But UN conditional Love, This Church and Everyone in it do so much for this community & beyond. No matter where you come from what your background is what color you are what health issues you have if you were in trouble or the sweetest person that can be they welcome you with open arms and right away you feel at home. There is something so personal yet shared by by all That the Pastor's & the team & countless Volenteers bring to everyone. My Heart Just Overflows Because of this Church and what it does for so many. I can never Thank the People that led me there enough Nor do I feel I could ever give back all its given me But I will do what ever I can to do God work for me there. Hugs Tonya I am so Glad your here :)

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  2. Thank u for that comment it explains everything so well n so true all the thanks u give back is by bein a part of it all n loving all tthat u do im so amazed n so grateful to be part of it all hugs back at u thank you its a true pleasure to be a part of it all thank u for commenting n takin time to read it

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