To be challenged or not to be?

It is often enough that through out our days we never know just what exactly to expect, that appointment set up you never really know what your walking in to, the walk to a store, each and all steps we make we never truly know what it is we walk towards in the life we live.  It is with the bad you have to smile in knowing that the good of your life balances out.  Yet in the bad moments we face we seem to go blank not enabling us to remember what it was that brought a smile to our face.  It's in the sunlight I feel the warmth in the freezing cold that makes me smile just how life is, you can have too much, the smiles come little by little, the moments of tears come little by little, yet in those tears draws a blank to what is so precious in our life that just brought a smile to our whole being not too long before the tears have fallen.

It is tough to understand to have just all the good moments in life would be a life with no growth with out those bad days, those struggles, it is in it all we bloom to be who we are destine to be, to cast aside the good forgetting in our moments of pain is to cast away part of our life, unseen, unknown left to just linger with no knowledge of what it could of been to us.  I find myself often enough being harder on myself in moments of feeling not accomplishing what it is I know I can do, that in failure I beat myself up to the point that I forget all good in life that is, that will be, that in this moment it is and never will be permanent.  That no matter how hard the task in front of me may be in time that task with determination will be defeated, if only you do not get caught up in the thoughts of the in the moment of "I can't do this".  

So many challenges come into life that we feel that we get weighed down to the point of no return, that we are not worthy of what we do, that easy to quit comes to mind, in that split of the moment we have to let our mind, body and heart understand nothing comes easily in things we are not familiar with, things that are new, things we never thought we see our self doing,  that doesn't mean that you can't, that just means all the more strength to what it is you do is needed and will surface if you rid of the negative thoughts that bind you to the I can't.  If we are to face every moment of our life with the knowledge of always be amazing, how will we conquer things of the unknown to challenge our lives to let us see that in the unknown with all your determination not anything is out of your touch, not any challenge is unchangeable.

If we don't accept those moments of the unknown and believe that we can we will never face the fears that in surprise hold a talent of dreams we never thought we find in the funniest of places, the most surprising of detours we thought we would never see our self.  Being uncomfortable is good, it is good to keep at that uncomfortable because soon enough that becomes the comfortable you thought you could never reach.  Challenging moments in life are ours for the taking to find through it that in that challenge you become someone you thought you could never be, sometimes your talents, purpose, passion is in a place that is of the most challenging of places that if too easy to give up you will never find it, your soul will never expand to all that it can be.

There to this day is a detour that I thought my life would never take but through the most hardest of my challenges each and every time I fought I found through it was all of me growing to understand that things take a different look in the ways you thought they should be, that in the challenge and different look it really is where you are finding just what more you can do in life, the more you can see you have so much more to offer in all that you do, that in disguise sometimes lays your little piece of a gem to fight for, to see it through and to understand as you look through what you do "hey I am making a difference this is a passion to me dressed up in a different way that you thought it look like".  Too many are too quick to give into the challenges that there purpose, passion, dreams slip right through their fingers in disguise of something they thought they were suppose to see was something different.

"Never judge a book by its cover", never judge your dreams by the looks, through it, in it, in the challenges through the other side you find it, being quick to give up is letting go to seeing it through to the other side.  You are not placed where you are for no reason, no matter how hard, how uncomfortable, those things lead to what is on the other side of the rainbow you seek at the end of it, what lays at the end of your rainbow is your pot of gold, challenges in life are ours to take on and endure all the heart wrenching most powerful of challenges to seek our pot of gold through the fight we fight beating it.  Right now, I am in a place I thought would never be, I am feeling the challenge, the frustration yet in it all I know each step I keep walking will unmask just exactly what I dreamed I could be, to see beyond the rough, tough, challenges and heart wrenching of moments I see in it the light of my future, that not in the form of what I visioned, yet in disguise it lays.

Giving up is easy, fighting to make your life to what you always wanted to be is your way of climbing to the top of the mountain in gratefulness you never let it go, that you chose not to stop and walk back down that climb.  You don't have to be in your dream job to bring with you your purpose, that through it you will carry that purpose and evolve into the dream you wanted to be.  So to challenges I say the same to pain, walk the hard walk, don't look back fight the great fight because there is not anything you can not do if you know in all of you that you can, to let the negative berry you is to be in the dark looking for the light that you carry so bright but let go of in the giving up.  Life is not meant to be easy, it is meant to be full of challenge, growth, and surprises of what you thought should be is in form of something you thought would never be what you thought it be.

Just imagine if life was so easy and at our finger tips of just how weak we would be as a whole, its the challenges, struggles and tears that shape us to be more and more of the hard fighters of dream seekers, to knowing that we can do anything if we only allow our self to believe we can and never giving up.  I fought the greatest of battles and still do and more to come I know but I smile in knowing that "I CAN, I AM and I WILL walk tall through it all, no matter how much I fail, fall down, my smile will always remain because I know as a person I am growing, I am finding more and more of the strength I thought never be there, I look up take a deep breath and smile knowing this is hard yet through it it's my blessings to life, it is defining who I want to grow to be as a whole, I hold my heart in knowing that love will never break and with that love nothing will break me.

When you find yourself being challenged so heavily yet surrounded by so much support, love and laughter in that alone is a gift, in that alone is a sign to you that no matter the challenge that love, laughter and support are your signs letting you know that yes this is the place I want to be no matter what more challenges come my way because through it you find your smile your love your laughter no matter how hard it may be your still finding the love, that if not meant to be in that moment you would never endure so much positive that over powers those hard challenges making you realize that through it your finding yourself, your finding your dream, passion, purpose that was there all along in disguise masked to seeming "no way this is not the path I am suppose to be on".

Don't be so quick to try and find and seek what you think your dream should be like because it will never be obvious to the eye only by the challenges you go through.  Don't look for fame and fortune, find your strength through your challenges and find it through it all at the end of your rainbow, the life we live will bring us to what we believe in ourselves of seeing and visioning we can be, do.  

Be the carrier of love, compassion, and strength to follow your path you walk on is the path created for you to be on, that detours may happen but detours are you growing to blossom even bigger than you thought you could be, don't let others distract you, discourage you, your day, your end of your rainbow will be when it is meant to, giving up is not going to lead you to your end of rainbow, fight the great fight be the challenge to yourself and the world, to show others they to can take on the greatest of challenges to make it to where they believed they could be, always remember "good things come to those who wait, patience is a virtue, the good always finishes last, love first, baby steps after.  I AM ready, I AM open, I AM ready to receive, I AM WORTHY, keep that posted to your heart and never forget it, look up and know he's got you, he's got your back, but you have to accept his love.

So I smile in the challenges that have made me tear up, made me feel the most uncomfortable but smile through it all knowing I am walking through the tough work to get to where I know and believe I am forever destined to be, that through the hard I unwrap my purpose, my dreams my growth, my wholeness, my all.  I never will give in to bonded to the gates of negativity, because in me is a fight to find my end of the rainbow, that it may not be fast enough but through it is a lesson of patience, strength and walking the toughest walk of a walk I've never thought I could do.  Each day is a day of new blessings, being able to get that day is a blessing alone, put on your armor and push through the tough and unleash the beauty of a dream that you are.  Show yourself proudly that in the tears, pain, challenges and uncomfortable there will always be joy, accomplishments, dreams, and love.

If your not uncomfortable your not fully reaching the dream of your dream.