Dreams arn't always as you see them to be

To remember of the dreams we shared together with our loved ones passed, so much to do together, to see together, to be the strength for one another through the times you felt like giving up.  Losing our loved ones passed may make us feel as though to give up on our dreams because that dream can no longer be because that dream was a dream of many dreams you had together.  I remember the transformation of all of me going on inside me as my husband was sick and taking care of him, in stressful, painful times I felt this transformation in me that was telling me a story to my soul, I felt peace in the midst of the storm, I felt hope, I felt joy, I listened to my heart and looked closely to what it was that was happening in my life.  

Taking care of my husband there were many moments of silence in thoughts of what if?, change, how can I?, there were many wondrous of moments as though someone was around shaping me into the change that will be taking place, allowing me to see that even through the heartache the most amazing things that has become through it.  My husband passed already instilled in me that there was not anything he believed I could not do.  Remembering a night as I layed next to him there were memories of dreams, dreaams together, dreams of our own, yet never come to see that those dreams would take a different form, that my dreams would totally take a different shift.  

Through the chaos, sickness and tears there was that comforting feeling of a huge transformation happening inside me, words could not describe, it was as though I was being reminded of the things I've done I thought I could never do but did with out hesitation.  At the same time I knew I was losing my life I felt excitement in change that layed before me, it is as though I was being guided by God, affirmations of the hard change but giving my soul a heads up to the change of the biggest of blessing that will take place through it.  I knew that the dreams my husband passed and I had would change, yet knew in my heart that didn't mean to give up, it just meant they would take a different shape, sometimes what we think we see in our dreams is not always how it turns out to be like.  

When I lost my husband my heart felt nothing more than to be able to help those that grieve all around the world, to become a high profiled blogger, to be that motivational speaker for all that grieve, my eyes opened to so many of amazing things that my heart beamed in thinking of.  That was 2011 to present, here lately I find myself stuck, down, alone but know still deep in me I could never give up on this, because giving up on this would be to be giving up on love.  Last night on LifeClass a lady had asked about giving up on her dreams, financial reasons, that she was speaking exactly out loud for me, how are you to become your dream when in the reality of life you are bounded to forever financial stumbles, being stuck in every aspect of financial abilities.  I gasped in waiting for Bret Michaels response.  Deep in my heart I knew the answer but like this lady it has been so many times I felt to give up, I felt that the dreams I carried have been too many of things, that financially I was done on any dreams I have ever thought would be and that I'd for sure let it go.  

Then as I listened to Bret Michaels I heard what I needed to hear to validate what my heart had felt already, NO do not give up on your dreams, not ever, after all I am always the one preaching to others to do the same, so why here I am wondering of my own.  I seen the many people around her step up in helping her, lifting her, then come to realize that is what it is, to dream your dream and never give up, to help others any way that you can comes back ten times fold, that even if I felt unsupported and alone that it is my dream and on my own with my belief with everything in me I am the one to make them come true.  

That finances can't take that dream away, you work hard to get on your feet, keeping that dream with you along the way, that no matter what you do you can never not bring into where ever you go your purposes of your heart into what ever job you need to make it to the dream you want to be a reality.  It's so many things that frustrate me as I looked around to the support given to so many to lift them higher, I thought where is my lift?, where are those that should be there?, then I realized my support was not seen, that my support was an angel known by name, that also was a person I prayed to every night, sometimes the support you don't see around is often times the kind that is unseen but oh so powerful to your life and the true ones always by your side.  

Dreams with my husband passed may not be yet may be still dreams to be just only in a different way, I take to heart our dreams together along with mine to strive to see them in reality some day soon.  To those that lost their loved ones I say don't get into thinking that dream you had together is gone, I say vision it in the different way it will be with all your heart, it is up to you to keep that alive and understand to honor your love and keep it close to your heart to know it may not be the way you envisioned it but it will and can be the dream in a different way.  It is true and I've always known this in my heart "NEVER EVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS".   

As I sat with the most amazing lady talking of things, it was so enlightening to see her more excited than I was of all the things she seen I had done and what I wanted to do, she was the one that put that spark back where it needed to be in me, she was my angel that day to think more out of the box for me than I have on my own.  So I definitely say as soon as you are feeling down on letting go there is something that in the oddest ways will find a way to you to spark up that light in you once again, yet leaving you see things way out of the box than you thought you could ever see.   

It's hard it's a struggle but that is what it is all about the growth you take on to fit into those big dreams that you dream.  Oprah Winfrey that is a huge part of my dream, to be on her show Super Soul Sunday as frustrating as I get for not getting noticed I take pride in the much growth I take with me along the way before that dream becomes a reality, this blog being a world known famous blog touching hearts, well I took notice in the hundreds and hundred of comments and the many, many countries it has reached to realize part of that dream is there but in time no matter how long its been it will be all of what I visioned it to be.  

This is it for you all that you may feel your dream is not coming reality when in reality if you take time to let go of the frustration and truly look at what you do you will see that part of that dream is there, that you accomplished much of it you just have not got all the way there yet.  Then I remember hearing a lady say on LifeClass that after her mother had passed she took on a different faith and hope, as it is the same to the dreams you carry from what you had with your loved ones passed, they do not need to be forgotten they just need to take on a different change, in you is that love that never leaves, use that love and re conform that dream and never let it go along with the ones of your own.  

You can never have too many of dreams and purposes, they are all instilled in you for a reason, for the greater good to change in this world.  There is such gratefulness in me when I think of that transformation happening inside me in the midst of the storm showing me of all the things I've done that before would of never done, I thank God for allowing me to open my heart to the fullest to see the challenges I've done with out hesitation making me understand that to this day not anything is not for you if you just believe and become that dream.  I thank God that every time I want to give up I see signs of creations of his love in nature that are of significance to my husband passed and I that slowly levitates me back on the path I need to be on, I thank my husband passed for always being that angel around me to ease the bumps and falls that I shall take an have taken.  

Why do I come back and speak of him through stories I share, because he may not be seen but always with me to guide me to the path of the dream and purposes that I need to fulfill.  Is of the same to anyone out there, your dreams are there for a reason, your support may not be seen but is there,  if anything it is the best of support you could ever ask for, the angels you know of by name, God, angels you even don't know by name, all the love is there and it is strong in you and all around you.  Most of all I thank OWNTV for being there as my heart was wide open to allow me to realize there are more to everything you do then you see.  OWNTV by accident?  I think not by no accident was there for me after losing my husband and was there after losing my father instilling in me forgiveness and love so I could see beyond the pain I held onto towards my dad allowing us to gain all that love of a father and daughter should have before he passed.  

Things in your life may seem that you have not accomplished nothing but that's the frustration happening in you, take time to truly look at all you do now and that you have done and you will see parts of what you dream and the purposes you hold are taking reality, that just because all is not there does not mean you haven't made it to what you dream.  In dreams we want to be reality is also growth to take shape before reaching that reality, that is what I do believe dreams of ours happen little by little but because we don't see the full dream a reality we miss the little by little pieces.  

Is it of coincidence I got called today for a job that I thought wow not really my dream but sitting down to realize it is a job that my purposes will be put to full use is when I realized how sometimes things happen different to give you that growth on  the path leading to the reality of the bigger dream.

Do I get mad seeing others being supported so much over and over again to help them to their dreams yes I do but am I jealous?  no.  I know in me I am the one responsible for my dream and forget not the support I have is not to be seen but all I need to get where I need to go.  So for those who may feel alone and frustrated let go of it and look up and smile God's got you, your loved ones passed got you and most of all you got you.  Believe in the powerful human being you were born as and fill your whole being in knowing in the belief you have in you and your dreams.  Yes there will be down days but don't let it take away what your heart wants you to be and do.  Look inside you to know of all you done, been through already to know those little dreams you have made reality with out even noticing while doing.

~ Shine on falling angels, shine one me ~