Spark of an Eye

It touches me to the deepest of my heart as I look to the eyes of another that has lost half their heart but to see that spark in their eye, it shows to my whole soul that they to are seeing just exactly what it was that happened to me in time after losing my husband passed.  It makes me smile the brightest of smiles knowing behind that bright spark in their eye that through their hardest of pain they to are getting the beauty, the blessings, their heart is seeing to the fullest like ever before.  

When I look to others it is so easy for my heart to detect that spark, or to see the darkness of gloom that is lingering over the person that lost their heart.  It makes me so proud and oh so grateful to see the ones that are starting to see life through their heart, to the ones that are quite not there the more that found their light can carry on to those that may not see what we see just yet, to lift them up and be all love that can be so they to can have that spark in their eye, bright light shinning, it has been a long journey through the darkness but through it you feel it, yet as you feel it you lift it, then that spark of life comes so bright shinning onto others  to show them that they can make it through.  

I'm so grateful that the more that see with their heart through the toughest of pain to know that in them they can teach unto others just what ways to come through the pain, to keep walking the toughest of walks, that heart wide open is where you will truly find the new that is beginning in the most beautiful of ways to your life.  Change is scary but scary is covered in joy once you cast the scary out of it.  My heart truly lifts to the clouds to see that other people are finding their way, that the pain is not taking them over, that they are finding the way to battle the toughest of battle, that the more that find this, the more that can catch onto what they see of others.  

Oprah said something that I've always knew in my heart, when we lose someone "we now have an angel we know by name" ~ Oprah Winfrey ~.  It is nothing but the truth I take deep comfort in knowing the personal angels of my heart that are always with me, always around me, that are forever in the spaces of the emptiness in between us.  It truly touches my heart so deeply to see a person in grief find their light, to find their heart truly fully open to the blessings laying all around them in the pain that they go through, so when I see another widow/widower with that spark in their eye it gives me great joy in knowing that it is catching on, that what I love to do so passionately with all my heart is nothing but of the truth, that it is not just me that knows of what lays in pain that soon if allowed by heart turns into a change in you like no words could ever explain.

Remembering a dream not long go, the dream where it seems so real you could touch an feel that touch, my husband passed and I sitting on a ledge as the water in front of us was glistening in the midnight moonlight he said to me "everywhere you are, everywhere that you look I am there, I am with you".  This dream was a dream that was a gift to us all if only we break that pain to open our hearts to see the beauty of our loved ones messages trying to reach us so often.  This is what makes my heart glisten when I see others catching on to that special of blessing gifted to us all.  Open heart, open love, open to the beauty of the life as it should be known and seen.  There comes long so many teachings and whispers to our heart in the times of the pain turning into the love that takes over if you let it be.

As often as we find our self in sorrow often times enough through it comes the light to show us just what can be if we allow ourselves to open to it, to understand the blessings in it, that in the struggle it is always how we choose to see it and go through it, that we all in this world that have struggles, it is in those struggles we can be defeated or use them as the teachings of the heart.  So when I see others catching on it makes my heart sing, and makes me all that more encouraged to do what I do, that it does touch hearts around the world, that to know in my heart it is making changes for the better.  Seeing a person rise from the pain in their life to open to the glory of the life of the greatest love of all makes me feel so grateful to know that they to understand.

The more sparks in the eyes of those that have suffered a great loss the more teachers to teach upon those in darkness, even just a glance to those in darkness can be a life altering change to the person in darkest of pain, your light is enough to show them the life that they to can be and see.  We often enough tend to lean into the pain, yes we need to feel it but it does not have to take residents in our lives forever.  Spark on all you beautiful widows/widowers because in you is a teaching to those that have not yet found their own spark.

As you shed your old skin of a life yes you are sad that it is leaving but to see of the new beginning the light is so bright it excites every being in you, to start to see everything as you should of from the start of your life is the biggest of blessings of a miracle that ever could ask for. When you truly find the spark of your soul, to feel your spirit of love, to know finally you have great purposes to fill and do, that what you thought was just a dream is not just a dream, that you have it in you to be that dream.  To understand you are here not to just live but to live with a love to be a change for the better and touch hearts in this world is a greatest heart awakening you could ever have.

Remembering as I walk this life I am not walking alone, that every step is the spark of love walking with me lighting up the path for others to see.  So when approached by someone that my heart radar feels has caught on makes my soul shine, that finally their is so much of the biggest sign that finally the pain in grief is starting to catch on to the realness of what it can be, that the whispers of the heart are waiting for you, to turn on the spark, to not be afraid to let it be, this is the gift to you in your pain as you hand it up to God in trade of beauty.

Darkness turns into light, light shines onto others, impressions of good catch on like fire blazing in the woods.  Don't let that darkness cripple your life, in the dark you always can find your way around, so find your way around, until the sparks fly and ignited is a light of your very own.  From old to new yes that is change but from old to spark is a blissful moment that sings to your heart, mind, soul and life.  You don't feel the sadness in change you feel the uplifting lightness to the life shedded in tears you may say good bye but more than ever you will be in joyous to the new that has been waiting for you for so long.

As I slept the other night, I felt the touch of something on the end of my foot, my heart smiled in knowing in the where you do not see is the forever love that never ends that will forever be, that will forever watch you, that will forever be there to keep your spark alive, down in the basement I found keys out of no where, a key chain full of keys of my husband passed, I picked up these keys to break down in tears, dropping the keys as they fell to the floor with my tears, for a second that spark in me dimmed, yet as I looked around to all of the boxes I knew that in the greatest of love is the greatest of pain but packed in those boxes was a life that changed my heart forever for the best that soon enough those tears turned to joy to just what that love has done to my life and still does.  

It is the littlest of things that will always trigger and flicker our spark of life but to find that great love is not gone no where will always keep that light bright.  Spark on, bright on, teach on, love on, those tears we shed still are only reminders of the life we miss but fall in disappearance knowing we are the change for the ones that need to find their way through it, that the love we have never left but only shedded its earthly body.  You see once touched so deeply by pain shattering altering of life, you become so sensitive to pick up on the issue at hand in your heart, listen to it, feel it, know it and smile every time you see another that to has caught on to it all.

Do not be ashamed of what you been through, be the spark to spark another's life, teach the teaching to others who have not found their ways, listen to the stories of heart, lift up those that your heart tells you is down, do not be afraid to approach those that you feel need your hand, it is the difference in you that soon will make a difference to all that see's you taking the lead.  We are brought in this world to be in service to the lord by the special of purposes instilled in our hearts, no matter how odd it may seem to another it is your blessing and it is your heart and duty to act on the calling you been handed to.

You don't think it terrifies me to know that once people find out what it is my heart loves to do could clear a room in the ignorance of the topic alone?  It saddens me to see so many still that will walk away as fast as you speak of the word grief, yet all the sparks I see in others makes that scared, fearful, sadness clear knowing that I am here, that no matter how hard the topic that I can make the difference that onto others they to can make the world of difference and show others to keep on keeping on.

We all were blessed with the purpose of divine to show so many that what our greatest beings truly are, to show others that reflection of light to keep it going through others and never stopping.  The spark of the eye is the spark of love making my heart beam, knowing yes they to have found their light and now will see it only grows stronger and brighter.  My husband passed has changed my life to the fullest, in that alone is a story I could never truly explain to the fullest of greatness that it is, from seeing the person I was to who I am now, that alone makes me glow of his unconditional love blessed to me and that keeps on keeping on in the life I am in now.

Beauty of you shedding your old to gain the beauty of the wings of a graceful butterfly