I saw You

My husband, in others I see him to remind me our love is every where.

Not to long ago there was a moment in time I thought would never be. It was a moment not ever thought of nor thought would ever have to face. Isn't it funny the most out of this world things that you thought could never be, one day proves to you "oh yes it can". These moments leave you standing in what feels is a dream, the words try to surface, yet nothing comes out. "Always expect the unexpected" is what I constantly remind myself from that day forward.

In all the moments that take you by surprise it is those moments we become more aware of the fact that anything is possible in life, that in those moments all of our belief is shifted, some moments for the best, some for the bad, yet in all of those moments is a blessing to our growth, to the journey of life we go through. On this particular day the moment that happened was bitter sweet, maybe to others it will sound little but to those that grieve it would be something huge. It always amazes me how in life the things never thought of always makes an appearence in reminder of letting you know it can happen, that not anything is impossible to happen. Picking out the sweet from the bitter sweet, that is what I took with me from that day forward, that in life there is not anything that is impossible, that not anything is off limits to happen in your life to help you grow as much as you can, to blossom in to all you need to be.

Grieving is a special gift we bare, in grieving we are brought to so many of changes that soon we come so accustomed to change that nothing is something we fear. We get the new slate to create our life over, to build a life in a new glorifying, beautiful way we ever could of thought of before. The second time around allows us to grow in the knowledge of all of our dreams, to build our life into those exact dreams we have had for so long. Once the pain, darkness have dropped it is replaced by dreams, love, fearlessness. Although in grieving there are things you feel ten times more then you had before. It's as though your feelings, emotions, love, all expload in to an explosive, more vibrant way then before. So sometimes to us that grieve the feeling we feel lasts more then to others that don't. All this could be for the better, as well as the worse. For me on this day it was for both but mostly a lesson was found in it no matter how hard it was.



All lessons to us are lessons that are there for a reason, thing's don't happen for no reason, it's not about bad luck, good luck, it's about being able to grow to the measures we need to for our soul, for our life story we live. It is in it all we learn to become the best person we can be, to find our purpose in lessons that come our way.

I still find it funny to think of all the things that have happened in knowing that these moments are built specifically for my journey, that maybe it hasn't happened to others for that reason, in all my moments they were a lesson for me, so others moments in life could never be the same due to all of us being different with each our very own purpose. Moments in your life were purposely designed to fit you, for you. So through the hardest of moments it is up to us all to unwrap to find out, to understand fully why we have been chosen for the moments that come our way. From the bad to the good, even in the bad there is a light that waits for you to find.

Grieving is the most unknown journey i've ever been on. Through it you will see so many twists and turns, yet it is in the learning you find the way to make it in the brief straight paths you go down. Grieving becomes a stepping stone you use to making steps higher and higher in life, that you soon discover it has taken you even higher then where you were before. In it all you find yourself in a place you have never before been, in that place you see it is a place you've always imagined you wanted to be. Take the time to understand in each moment your given why you have been presented with the moment. Use the moments to lift you higher, let them be your stair way to a level growing you higher and higher each time. Don't see moments for good nor bad, see them as platforms to lift you higher then where you were before.



So in my moment it was a regular normal day to me, it was a birthday celebration, so family as well as friends were all around, it was a wonderful day, we gathered at a restaurant to celebrate my step fathers birthday. We sat around chatting, laughing, having good times. As I looked acrossed the table I could see my aunts face, it was though it turned to a sheet of nothing but white, in her expression you could see something was wrong, I remember asking her yet it was let go in all the commotion. As I looked around the restaurant watching others enjoying, I came across a table where I immediately had to keep taking a second look. In every second glance I could feel a feeling of nothing but tingles from head to toe. Quickly I looked back to my aunt where she knew I had just seen what she did earlier not wanting to tell me. All of me felt that there was nothing more I wanted to do but look at this man at the table behind us. Understanding it is not polite to stare, yet in that moment it was not to be applied. Seeing this mans face was a comfort to my heart, it was all I wanted to do. If I could stay to watch him for the rest of the night I would of. This man was a twin to my husband passed. After the comforting sensation wore off a little, then came the sadness, trying to not let others know what was happening, they soon found out. Everyone was now looking, this poor man probably felt the world was out for him on that day. Getting away is what I had to do, it was in the bathroom looking in the mirror I understood that in these moments you can either let yourself take steps back or use it to move forward, to understand that anything in life is possible, knowing through it all we come to realise we can make it through, no matter what presents itself to us, in us all is the will to move forward through it, learning, growing, blossoming.

On this day I saw my husband passed, although I knew it was not him, that no one will ever be him, no one could be him there is only one of us all. Seeing this man was a comfort to my heart, it was as though on that day my husband passed was letting me know that no matter how much I miss him, to not to, that he is every where. That every where I am he will be, our love will be forever, our love along with memories will always be around every where that I go.

Another thing I started to understand was not to look for him in others, that there will never be another like him. No matter how much the resemblance it will still never be him. The looks may be there but his heart will never be.



After the story of this day, it was others that told me they to seen my husband passed in another, all little reminders that my husband passed is every where, every where my heart goes, every where our love made an impression. Our love made an impact in this world, so it will be every where I look I will always see him. Remebering this day now it brings a smile to my face, remembering my aunt as well as mother wanting to take a picture of this man, laughing in realising how this poor man must of been wondering "what the hell was going on", to thinking "these people are crazy". I remember how all of me just wanted to jump in his lap, to just wanting to stay and stare. All of the remembering reminds me the complete comfort my heart felt seeing my husband passed in a complete stranger.

NOTE TO ALL: In all that is brought to our life it is up to us how we face it. It is in us all no matter what to rise above all lessons given to our life, to use the lessons as a stair case leading us higher and higher in to the life we choose to build up. Use the lessons to lift you higher, use it all to reach so far beyond the clouds. Understand that anything is reachable, you just have to build in that direction. Find it in you to rise to every occasion, to keep getting back up, to understand that sometimes it takes a little bit more time getting back up yet as long as you keep getting back up is what matters the most. Each step up is a step of strength, each step up is a dream come true. The higher you build the closer you are to all the dreams that you have. It's in the moments we find out truly who we are. It's where we find our strength, our love, our beautiful life. It's in it all we find out just where we want to be. We find out in the little moments are where the biggest of lessons are learned. Celebrate the little to the big because in it all is a victory of your life your building in achievement to your dreams, your goals, your purpose.

In the crowd of those that truly love you there is not anything you can not handle. To bless yourself to be with those that love you the truest is what will always conquer the darkness you face. It was on that day I was surrounded by complete love that carried me through the moment of such great impact to my heart. Your heart will always let you know those who love you honestly.

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Tonight I accidently deleted my new post I posted called "I Saw You" will be re typing and posting again.  Huge frustration so early in the morning.

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Remembering memories with love not pain

When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight. – Kahlil Gibran

 

On our wedding day I knew our future would not be long, yet our true love would last forever.

In the beginning of my grief I can remember the unbearable pain as soon as a memory of our life came into my mind, the pain took out all the life in me to just remember.  Your left in thought of overloading questions of why this happened?, what am I going to do now with out them?, how will I ever be able to think of our love if it takes the breath out of me leaving me lifeless?, to feeling I don't want to think of the memories due to wanting to have more of it with him/her with me but now he/her is gone.

The pain of memories come back flooding your whole being leaving you feel helpless, yet in those moments of memories the pain forces us to lose touch of any positive thoughts to over come the pain, it leaves all of you in the dark, it takes a hold of you so strongly that your heart automatically feels the strong grip of pain, fears, hopelessness.  Really no words can ever explain the wrath it has on all of you, yet all of you just feels alone, you see no one, feel no one, the world is though it exists of only you, your pain, your loss.  It feels as though your on an island all alone, no one around, the sun never shines, your tears fall yet no one can save you, no one knows how to, no one even knows where you are.  All of us is so consumed in pain that all of our being is held hostage to the strong grip of pain, fear,  darkness.  It's easy to see why we at first just let go, we take that vacation alone, we all know we are never alone yet at first we need to take that trip alone. 

It is as though in this time we start to find out just how much strength we hold in us.  We use this time to explore rock bottom to see there is absolutely no where else to go, we understand that either we stay under water to give up, or we build all of us back up to the level of life.  Once you see with your own eyes there is no more further down to go, we see proof that it is true, "Once you hit rock bottom there is no where else to go but up".  In this time around we build so strongly back up to life that we understand the foundation is all up to us to re build stronger then it has ever been.  Things that never before were seen are found this time around.  Our life takes on a whole new look, our hearts start finding more room from the pain that took up too much of the space.  Little moments by little moments we are rebuilding our life with out even realising.  In those little breaks we think clearly to understand what we thought would never end, actually does.

In the moment wherever you will be all of you suddenly stops to take notice that your mind has let go of the pain that goes with the memories you thought of, you take notice in the moment you are actually thinking of something other than the loss of your loved one passed, it is in those little moments that soon enough it becomes longer, to me it is as though it is a tiny vacation for you as well as your heart.  It is in those breaks you start to understand "yes it does let up", the more it happens the more you start letting in the light.  In those brief moments is when you then can start to understand the memories of your loved one passed is not about pain, it is the thoughts that make you shine from within all the way across the ends of the world.  That is when you must take a hold of the feeling of love, that it is that love that you have felt once upon a time when your loved one passed was here with you, so why let the pain take that away?.  Every memory with your loved one passed is the path you need to follow to find all of your light, to find your hope, to find your dreams, to find doors that are open waiting for you to walk through.

Understanding in the beginning those memories are meant to be left far away from our thoughts as possible due to wanting it all to be the way it once was.  In time the beginning moves forward in silence to a place where you will see a break happen, a gift to your heart, as well as soul.  The title wave needs to come to shore just as the pain as well calmly leaving your whole being in a calm, feeling the pain free break, even if just for a little.  These breaks are a blessing to your heart, it is in those moments you can see that it does ease up, you can think clearly, that you are still you.

The memories we have start to become our treasures, our strength.  Once we start taking notice to the memories to see the pain no longer controls us nor our memories we start to understand that it is in us to keep pushing through it all, it is in the remembering the memories we find are our "happy thoughts" the thoughts we use to defeat the darkness, the pain we thought would never leave.  Those memories become the grip we take back on our mind, body, heart, soul.

In the remembering, I remember so many moments to use as my light once the darkness creeps around.  Remembering at night as I sat up in bed watching my husband passed and our little girl sleeping thinking to myself "this bed seems so small yet in this queen size bed is everything I have ever wanted in my life", remebering how every night as my daughter snuck in between leaving me to the edge of our bed it was all I ever needed in my life, that right there was my world, my life.  Also remembering all the endless nights my husband passed and I would lay awake laughing as well as talking until early morning not to even take notice in the time, nor that it was already morning.  I remember the beach, a place we would go to just to relax, to just be in that moment.  The many road trips lookin for horses for my daughter to see, she loves them so much, for us seeing her face brighten up like the sun made us smile, proud, grateful.  The memories of us are all around, they are never ending.  Don't fear you will ever forget, our love will never let us.

It is in all of these most sacred moments you will find your blessings in the now life you slowly re build.  In these memories your loved ones passed stay with you, never leaving your side.  In it all you will find the way to the bright light within you, you will find you again, you will find it is the memories that become a force so much stronger than anything you have to face.

All of your memories will prove to your heart that anything in life that you do is doable, you will find new dreams, new hope, new belief.  You will start seeing a brighter, vivid joyful side of life you have been missing for so long, it will be as though everything will just look so much brighter.  In you you will feel a feeling that no words can ever explain.  All these little breaks start to become longer, bigger, lasting breaks.  Once you feel that there is not anything you feel you can not do.  Find your memories, in those memories lays little pieces of your strength.  These memories soon become what you use to fight out the darkness and pain, soon enough with out thought you fought out the darkness so much all you see is light, love,  peace.

All of the life you once had soon becomes a treasure we let lay in our hearts.  We soon realise that the pain is not what our loved ones passed has blessed us with, it was pure true love, that alone is what conquers all the pain as well as darkness.

In building anew the life that we re build becomes a forever shinning bright light that not anyone can't see.  The light within shines brighter, the life we start living becomes unbreakable, our belief never fades, dreams become so real we conquer them all little by little.  Through it all we know in our hearts that everything we ever dreamed of is all right there down the path we walk along side our memories of the life we had before this.

NOTE TO ALL:  The path we walk may seem dark yet as we move forward we put on our shades to see the light getting brighter then the sun on a hot day in summer, we start to see those around  having to start putting on their own as well when ever we are near.  Memories = your powerful strength to use against any darkness or horrific pain.  Memories become our dream catchers.  It was the other day going through our things looking for something I came across our wedding pictures that was when I understood just how powerful our memories really are to our life we live now.  Sure at first I was struck with uncontrolable tears but quicker then the tears I smiled in knowing on that day I married the man that blessed my life with absolute true love.  It was on that day he made one of my dreams come true.

From the bad to the greatest of memories it was in them all you were sulking in nothing more then pure true love.  What I take with me through the toughest of my days are the words my husband passed would always tell me "I just want you to be happy".  The moment that brought me back up from rock bottom was remembering the very first time my husband and I saw one another, there was something in between us telling us both "this person you see in front of you is where your truest of love lays, a gift to you both that not everyone will find, a love that goes beyond this life you live". 

In honor of my husband passed I light the three candles in this picture above, the light of the candles always remind me of the light I hold within that may flicker from time to time yet never go out or be put out.  The light of the candles are always a reminder to my heart that our love will forever shine, to take my light out into the world to show others in grieving pain that they to can turn back on their own light.  That no matter what their light will always shine.  The love from our loved ones passed combines with ours to shine brighter then ever before, It is to be seen at the ends of the world and back.

 



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Remembering Namita Bhandare

This tragedy struck a nerve in me deeply and felt to post here about it to try to get the word out there more.  No one should ever have to live in fear, I hope the darkness will lift for all those that live in India.  God BLESS Namita.

She was 23, with a marriage just months away. But two weeks ago, she was gang raped by six men, savagely beaten and thrown out of a moving bus in Delhi. This week, the still unnamed woman who has become “India’s daughter”, died of her injuries in hospital.

Namita Bhandare knows the constant fear that goes with living in Delhi, nicknamed India’s “rape capital”. Like others, she long believed that nothing would change. But the outpouring of anger and sadness now has convinced her that this could be a turning point for women like her.

The tragedy has sparked vigils and protests, and over 100,000 Indians have already signed Namita's petition to the Prime Minister. As the story reverberates around the world, being covered by every major news outlet, there's a chance for Canadians to help show the Indian Prime Minister that their international reputation is on the line if they fail to act.

Click here to sign Namita’s petition asking the Indian government to actively prosecute rape cases, introduce compulsory sensitivity training for police, and pass two proposed laws to protect women.

The story of “India’s daughter” has sparked deep grief and fury across India. Grief for her horrifying ordeal, and fury that politicians have ignored the huge problem of rape and sexual violence against women for so long.

According to crime statistics, a woman is raped every 22 minutes, and most rapists are never prosecuted. Women are often blamed for their own rapes, police refuse to hear reports from victims, and some women report being harassed by the very authorities they hope will protect them.

Politicians are being faced with some uncomfortable truths. But Namita says that unless people seize this moment of national consciousness, the chance to change anything will slip away. That’s why she’s asking for global support to show the world is watching.

Click here to sign Namita’s petition, and ask the Indian government to do everything in its power to make sure tragedies like this are never repeated.

Thanks for being a part of this, Lauryn, Jordy and the Change.org team

After the death of a 23-year-old student who was gang-raped and beaten, Namita is asking the Indian government to take action to stop this recurring.



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Holiday Relief

As I type this I am in a deep thought of how the holidays can be so stressful on us all, even more so for those that are grieving.  I know for so many it is a time of great magic along with excitement, to all those that grieve it is a holiday we all wish we could just fast forward due to feelings of pain as well as sadness.  

For me this time last year was as though I was watching someone on TV go through the motions, it was as though it was me but not really me, like an outer body experience, I barely spoke, smiled as much as I could which was not often, cried many times, yet held strong to make it a great Christmas for our daughter.  That's just it as I type this I don't want many of you doing what I did, don't feel as though you have to put on a portrait of happiness for others, do not feel as though you are pressured to do things you know you don't want to.  

Be true to you as well as your heart, feel what you feel to express it.  Do not feel as though you need to smile, you need to feel joyful, you take the way you feel to be as exactly how you feel every second of that day good or bad.

Although I do know that being with people that truly loved me helped my heart truly mend a little that day.  Being true to your feelings is the best gift to give to yourself on this day.  

Yes we want all to be happy, we want our children to have the best day ever, yet also we want them to know that being happy is OK that because we are happy does not mean we don't miss our loved one passed.  Take the time to Honor that loved one, in any way you see fit.  

For us we visited my husband passed family, we took time remembering the great memories, we said a prayer, we visited cemetery, let go of balloons, wrote letters placed in Christmas tree, we let our self not ignore the fact of sadness yet embraced the sad, the happy, the love.

On this day I say to all to take many, many, many moments in quiet.  Your loved ones passed will always be with you, acknowledge their love they will feel it, make them smile in knowing YES I am sad yet I can make it through with all the emotions that come to be. 

As sad as it may be the pain can never over come your heart when you fill it with their love, their memories, their beauty.  On this day do not ignore the fact that the pain is there, just use their love to be stronger then the pain that wants to creep in to take away the blessings to you on this day.  

Sometimes we forget that love is always stronger than pain.  On this day I say feel IT ALL, allow yourself to understand it is OK to feel what ever it is you feel, take the breaks you need along with breathing deep and letting go of pain as you exhale.  On every special occasion it is a time to celebrate their love, use that love to vanish away the pain that lurks, it is that pain that takes away from the most important thing THEIR LOVE FOR YOU.

When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight. – Kahlil Gibran

I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge — myth is more potent than history — dreams are more powerful than facts — hope always triumphs over experience — laughter is the cure for grief — love is stronger than death. – Robert Fulghum

So in these days remember to love that love that you share with your loved one passed, celebrate their gift to you, yet be true to you to let all of what you feel be felt, no matter what it is, do not stress in the fact that you are feeling pain, that you shouldn't be feeling pain, don't make the mistake on trying to figure out why you are feeling the way you do to just feel it all and be OK with it all.  Take the feelings to open your heart to understand it is OK that you are doing all that you need to the best way you can to make it through the day by not ignoring yet understanding it is OK.

The easiest way is to just be, if invited some where, if at home, do not feel the need to feel bad for others if you need to leave, if you need to leave the room, just do what ever you feel to do in your heart for you, others that love you will understand. 

Last year I remember exactly how I felt, that this year what ever it may be how I feel I will acknowledge to express unlike last year when I tried so hard to put those feelings on the back burner, this year I will love, I will be me, I will do all that needs to be to be true to myself as well as my heart.

Remembering that our loved one passed love is always with us, that in the happiness that love is being honoured, their love shines a little brighter each time we smile, each time we understand just how significant they still are to our hearts, knowing that the happiness is still there brings out the love in us we need to feel, it brings out the hope that has been gone for too long, it lets our loved ones passed know we are not sad because of their great gift to us that caused us to smile 24/7 when they were with us.  When our loved ones passed were with us it was not pain they made us feel, so keep that in your hearts in knowing when the pain starts that its not the pain you felt once upon a time with your loved ones passed it was nothing but true blissful joy as well as ABSOLUTE TRUE LOVE.

Take the time for you, smile when you feel it, cry when you need to, breath and feel their love right there with you in that room you celebrate in.  Never let pressure get the best of you, never let the possibility of hurting others feelings get the best of you, if you are with people who truly love you no words will have to be explained.

NOTE TO ALL:  Just be you, be true to you, your heart, understand that what you feel is OK and that you are not bringing others down for feeling the way you do.  Know that the support you have is all that much more stronger than the guiltiness you may feel.  Just be true to you, I say this a lot due to knowing that if you are then everything will fall in to the place it needs to.  Smile, love, embrace your loved ones passed love to know that it was your love that you both shared that made you feel on top of the world floating on clouds.  Take their legacy into the life you live to keep it alive, do what it was that was so special to you to keep it going, to keep their love going.

 

 

 



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12 days of consciousness: Own Ambassadors

DECEMBER 14 MICHAEL LAWRENCE

So it was to no surprise founder of OwnAmbassadors Lia M Keith had woke up one morning to have discovered a great idea to gift to this world, to gift to Oprah #ChristmasGiftToOprah.  

Reading her idea all of me just knew this was a idea that was meant to be, an idea that was so meant to be that could not of been stopped, in this life when things are to be there is nothing that can stop it from reaching hearts from all around the world, an idea that is suppose to come to life with out hesitation nor fight.  

12 days Of Consciousness is a true gift to spread to those all around us in this special time of the year, to share with everyone a blessing you all have within you.  When an idea creates and is of such life there is no fight in it, no frustration, just all things aligning to how it all is suppose to be, how it all should unfold peacefully.

For 12 days from December 12th to December 24th will be the days of great spiritual meaning, a wake up call to you, your soul, your mind.  Seeing this all come to life is no doubt to my heart something that is a great gift to all, its an idea that has become to life with no hesitation and to see all the great, hugely significant people who agreed to attend just goes to show that this is one of those moments that are meant to happen.

Here is our schedule and themes:

12/12/12 Patti Digh, author Community email interview/blog
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12/13/12 Olivia Newton-John singer/philanthropist Wellness email interview/blog
12/14/12 Michael Lawrence author Happiness tweetup. interview blog
12/15/12 Deepak Chopra author Infinite Possibility tweetup, interview, blog, video
12/16/12 Devon Franklin author/movie executive Changing Your Posture video, blog
12/17/12 Susan Piver author Basic Goodness tweetup, live meditation, question/answer session
12/18/12 Reverend Ed Bacon author, Spiritual Leader Love/Unity
12/19/12 Eric Handler author Positivity video, blog, interview, mediation video
12/20/12 Mark Nepo author Sacred Listening video, interview, blog
12/21/12 Tererai Trent author/teacher Resilience skype interview, blog
12/22/12 Jonni Pollard meditation master Oneness video, blog, live meditation session
12/23/12 Wrap Up and lessons learned from the event

On December 14th Michael Lawrence will work his brilliance, since speaking as well as interacting with him I've always wondered how a man of GREAT significance not be more out there for others to hear, for others to learn, he is a great man to this society and holds so much wisdom inside that this was no doubt a time for me to take his talent to show to all that can see.  

Through my grieving his teachings have never ever helped so much as it did in my time of need, his happiness method is a method many can heal from, a method to your whole being as well as life.  What he holds from within is a true gift to this world, his timing to give so effortlessly to me was nothing more of a miracle.  

On December 14th you will be in awe to learn just how simple it is to live your best life.  Through a tweet up Michael will show you just how simple it is to be happy, to take that happiness and run, no matter where you are nor what you do,  this works for all.  As a widow I found that this was what I have been doing for so long he just confirmed it all, he made me more aware of it all.  Michael can be found on twitter @theuhmethod.

After reading his book "The Universal Happiness Method" I knew within all of me this man carried a great gift in him, that he would help so many in struggle as well as pain.  There is no doubt in my mind that once you over come your pain great things begin in your life, once you let your happiness begin life takes on a meaning like never before.  I say this all in knowing personally, I've been in it,  I still go through it, yet through it I know happiness within will always prevail.  Happiness is you, happiness is a moment you create, the moment of opening the heart and smiling puts total end to all pain that layed within, it opens your heart, it opens so much more to the life you live, dreams are reachable, belief never fades.

These 12 days are a gift that will forever keep on giving, the line up is exploding great brilliance and that is putting it lightly.  December 14th is a proud day for me, a grateful day, to see Michael Lawrence give his gift to the world touches my heart deeply, he shines his bright light so vividly it could never be not noticed, to see him shine onto others is excellence.  To see his gift be gifted to others makes me ecstatic in knowing others will be mended of pain as I was on the day I met him.

As someone who was in darkness I can honestly say that what we hold in us is much more stronger then the darkness we allow in, it is in us all to live a life of nothing but total happiness, it is now you can chose to beat that darkness to bring in all your light.  In this life we are here to be love, to give love, not one person is here to suffer in the life they were given.  We are here for purpose, we are here to make that purpose our dream, to gift it to those out in the world we live in.

Start now and live the life you deserve, open your heart, to see the life as it should be MAGNIFICENT, give the greatest gift to yourself to watch as all 12 days brings you closer to the glory of life, the glory of you, the true way life is to be seen.  This gift is truly a gift that is a blessing to everyone it comes in line with. 

Lia M Keith you are a soul that was blessed to this world, a person that touches so many for the greater good in every way possible. 

So let the beautiful bliss to all our hearts in as well as life begin, these are the days you will see just how beautiful life is, these are the days that you will see pain evaporate into thin air, these are the days you take back your life to live it in the FULLEST.

Following Michael's twitter event I will post an interview as well asking all important topics to happiness as well as how it all came to be for him, if you have any specific questions you can email me at tonyaouimet@hotmail.com, along with tweeting to him @theuhmethod on December 14th.

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Heartfelt Shout Out To Oprah

DEDICATED TO OWNTV AND OWNAMBASSADORS

 

 

It is up to us to do our own work for our self in this life we live, yet the true blessing in it all is having someone, something that opens your eyes to truly how this world is seen.  It is no surprise that in this life all of us as individuals face some pretty heart wrenching of situations that face us directly in the eyes, yet it is up to us to do the work in handling our souls life lessons through it all.  So many of us out there know deep down what it is we were meant to be doing yet we let the fear, negativity, thoughts of others bring us down becoming less positive in what it is we so want to do in this life we live. 

Sometimes we get there on our own doing the work that is needed by listening to that voice that whispers deeply to our heart, some of us go through life a little longer until dealt with horrific pain leading to building anew we finally feel, see it so vividly that nothing can steer us away, yet through the pain, the feeling there comes a moment when you stumble across something that shows you, something that you stumble upon by pure accident yet becoming that one true blessing you could of ever asked for.  For some as myself a long period of time goes by before you finally open your heart to see life how it should be, by the glory that it always was yet only until now you truly see it.  Like myself I went through life so vastly never taking the notice to what it was that was trying so hard to show to me.  I do believe in your pain is truly when your life has no choice but to see blessings that have always been,  just not noticing by the fast, closed up life that we live.

No words by anyone can truly describe the feeling you feel once you finally do get it, once your heart feels the moment.  It is as though on that day you have been truly woken up to the world that you lived in for so long that was almost invisible until you truly see it through the eyes of absolute love as well as purpose.  OWNTV along with Oprah shows to the world just how BEAUTIFUL it can be, to me this is a true life saver to so many who live in the invisible and a blessing of a life time to give to so many.  As a widow this could of not come to my heart at the most precious of time to my heart, mind, soul.  To of been where I was to be where I am now is a life time dream come true, to be in the invisible to changing to being in the wonderful, bright, beautiful place I am now is worth more then anything.  Coming from the struggles, the fighting, the negative, to seeing nothing but absolute love, dreams coming true, to your heart feeling absolute bliss is more of a ever lasting gift to everyone that it touches.

Finding "The true you" is the greatest of all, finding that in anew is far more special to your life then being a prisoner in the life you once were.  As a teen I remember the words of Oprah, yet in that life I truly still wasn't getting it, I was living so fast as well as so blind that nothing could catch my attention.  Oprah yet still was always a huge impact to me, to my heart, to my life, and here we are 25 years later in my life yet again she gifted me a life time gift.  Her network OWNTV is a true,  rare,  one of a kind show that is giving this gift to so many, THEIR PURPOSE, its opening eyes to people every where what it is they are meant to be doing here in this world.  Its spreading hope as well as opening hearts along with doors to so many that lived so blindedly.

OwnAmbassadors is a world of people that is breath taking, a world of people that lift others higher, that shine their bright lights for others that can't during their times of need.   These people are true blessings to this world, they forever carry a bright light in them for others that never ever quits.  At first I seen them as people who supported OWNTV yet finding out later they are so much more then that, they are people who support you, that support love, that carry love, they act with out judging, they act out of nothing but pure true love.  They see in you what your own self can't at the time of need, they see it in you so strongly that soon enough the light clicks on from within you, opening your eyes to the world that is suppose to be.  It is within that moment you fully understand how magical, how special these beautiful bright lights are to you as well as this world.  Never in all of my life have I seen such passion, courage, talent, love, such unconditional love in people as I have when I met them all.  To see this in so many truly lets your heart know that this world is not as dark as seemed.

So here I was a lady that was carrying so much pain, so much darkness that thought her life was doomed yet then was truly awoken, my heart has never been so blessed as it was on the day I found OwnAmbassadors as well as OWNTV.  To many this may read over the top yet to me every word is the truth and not over the top enough to describe how it was such a dream come true for me.

As a widow through my grieving I stumbled upon OwnAmbassadors as well as OWNTV both at the same time to take notice in the glory of love, the glory of my purpose along with the glory of my life lessons in my pain.  To be truly awakened to it all is the gift that will forever keep on giving.  I see now because of all of this a world full of bright, beautiful, endless possibilities.  It is through this all I see a life of belief, a life of purpose, a life full of endless dreams that can be made reality.

Oprah, OWNTV, OwnAmbassadors are a graceful delight sent from up above to gift this world to all to help others see what it is that life really is.  I am so blessed to call myself an OwnAmbassador because coming where I have been I truly know how sacred it is to lift others higher, to love endlessly as well as never giving up on others in their times of need.  Even if you have lived for so long with blind folds it is never too late to lift the blind fold to see life as beautiful and crisp as it should be.  SERENDIPITY.

SERENDIPITY-means a "happy accident" or "pleasant surprise"; specifically, the accident of finding something good or useful while not specifically searching for it.

I use this word so often due to how so much has surprisingly happened to me, how so much has just fallen into place as soon as my eyes were wide open to life, knowing truly that dreams can come true is a blessing on its own, yet truly living is the greatest of all.  The doors that opened for me are endless, that I could never ever explain enough.  I know in my whole being my husband passed is smiling the big smile knowing I finally get it, that I finally understand what it is he was brought into my life to show me, to teach me. 

NOTE TO ALL:  Find your true purpose, live the life you were always meant to live, don't hide away in the darkness that seems the way it should be because darkness has nothing over the bright light you can carry in this world.  I will forever be thankful as well as full of love for OWNTV, OPRAH, OWNAMBASSADORS.  If something you feel is out of reach it is only because it is you that makes it out of reach.  Do the work no matter how hard the pain because in the hardest of pain comes great life lessons, along with great life changes.

 

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